I just need help.

[bekay514]

I am alone. The people that I call best friend don't even know how I'm feeling. Noone checks in on me anymore and I spend most of my time alone just waiting for them to. I don't understand how someone can go from saying I love you to not speaking to me at all. I am DYING. Literally just wasting away to nothing. I am sad and lonely and it seems like there is nothing that is ever going to take away this pain.

[bekay514]

Thank you so much for sharing that.

[bekAinflames213]

I know your pain intimately. A man I knew to be one of my best friends for 20 years and a lover for 6 years left me in April without a word. Myself and my three small children came home one night and found a lot of stuff was gone. At first I thought we were robbed. I could never imagine that the man that I was talking about marriage to and  was currently trying to have a baby with- was planning to leave us. After it occurred to me what had happened I had a total mental breakdown. I planned my suicide, I drowned my sorrows in alcohol, I isolated myself and just sprawled out on my face on the floor and checked out, I didn't eat for two weeks. My mother took my children for 7 months, I lost my job because I couldn't focus or perform. I gave up. I felt betrayed. Later I found out that after two weeks since he left me he got a much younger girl pregnant and they're getting married. I felt alone and like I was dying. I felt just like you do. All I can say is that all you can do is let time heal your wounds and take one day at a time. Do whatever it takes to be happy and content again. Make positive changes that you can be proud of. In order to survive depression and life itself, you should concern yourself most with is being comfortable. It shouldn't matter what everybody else thinks about you as long as you're comfortable and content. Also find support...ask for help. Believe me people care and they probably want to help you but they are being careful because they can see you are suffering. I want to offer you my understanding and support. Hang in there.