Hi. I'm 14 aswell, but I'm in 2nd year of secondry school in Ireland. I'm finding I care less about things and am a bit more oblivious to whats going on around me. I talk back to my teachers when they bug me, I cry myself to sleep nearly every night, I have bad dreams, I'm always on the edge, but it's just thinking that something from a horror movie is watching me. I'm usually all excited about christmas, and xfactor and school projects, but suddenly, I'm a little lost. I didn't speak to my mum about it, and I lied to the school guidance lady. I love to read, but I can't get into my books. I'm keeping up my grades somehow, but I don't work hard in class, except for art, where I feel I can totally relax. Maybe you should draw more, it works for me. I listen to lots of up-beat songs, and avoid the likes of gothic music. Sorry if this is long, but I thought it might help to know your not the only one on the rocky boat! Thanks.
I also used to be like that. My dad limited my video games to an hour a day. But that ended up not really helping. I moped around and just sat and watched tv. But the thing that helped me change was that I went to my friends. They stood by me for a while but my grouchiness turned most of them away. One of them stood by me still and made me start writing my stories again. At first I was really bad at the writing. I was just getting worse when I saw how my former talent had left me. But I made a choice that I really wanted to change. So I kept up with it. I still am, to be honest. I'm going into my freshman year of high school in three days so I'm hoping it was enough. I think it was :) Try talking to your friends or even a stranger who is willing to listen.
I use to be like that until i found other activities to do instead of video games and limited my self to two hours a day on the game
Depression is a chemical imbalance... Also... It's time to tell others besides your mom. Hormones at your age can also mess with your mind. I'm dealing with these same thoughts but at a much later stage in life. It is a real feeling..you are not imagining it. It's great that you are talking about it. Getting more sleep will help... You are using the video games as a distraction. Please tell someone that will listen. Hope this helps.