nothing in life for me

[sleep96]

im a 13 year old boy.my mom and brothers never liked me and still dont they hit me untill i bleed. i could have tonsof friends like i used to but my mom forced me to homeschool so all my friends forgot about me and when i went to one of there houses they didnt even no me that just said who are u? i never can go outside cause i cant do anything alone cause it makes me more depressed. i dont even leave my room only for bathroom and a drink of water.i lay in bed all day and sleep.i have many interest but noone to share them with. all i do all day is draw sleep and write storys. i havent had a friend or gone outside in over 2years. im not fat im underweight cause i dont eat.i just dont no wat the point in life for me is i mean like i got no friends my family hates me. and i know most of u r going to say u have a lot ahead of u or hang in there but for wat working at mcdonalds or something.if i had aa  job i would save up and live ina hotel if i had to as long as im away from my family im happy thats why i stay in my room. i have nowhere to go i would go to a church program or something but im in a all spanish town so every church is spanish for miles. theres just noway for me to make friends or be happy at all.i cant sleep at night and im tired all day cause of that.i cant sleep at night well cause i dont no noone noes its just me. i can really draw and write storys but who cares no one so i keep them to myself.im a good writer and artist but who cares! ill be the person living alone in the middle of nowhere dieing without anyone noing or going to my funeral.im a no one and everyone noes that.

[here_to_talk_]

Hey yeaaah you cn speak wen you are from the e age of 11. Soso good luck. =Dk

[skeetelmore65]

Hey...I really don't know exactly what to say to make you feel better. I am a good mom. I love my boys. I just can't see someone not loving their child, but I understand what you are going through. I was abused as a child, it was sexual abuse,but it was by a cousin not either one of my parents. I had a way out, but I still didn't take it because I was only a child. I had to stay the nights there sometimes(at the house my cousin lived).It was difficult to get through those times, but here I am today. I am disabled. I had a car accident in '95 and had to have surgery in '06. I have gone through depression and know exactly how it feels. I still feel it, but I reach for my Bible and read. You wouldn't believe how it changes your life. Try it. I bet after you read some you will not be able to stop. IT Takes hold of you and puts you in a different place in your heart and I think that is what you need. Be strong and just do it, I promise you it will change ur life.
     I had a son that was taken away from me, but all I ever done was love him. He was sexually abused by his step-mother. Things can be different all over the world. I am a good mom and would die for my children. Take hold of your life. Think of what you want for your future. Make plans for big things for they are coming your way. I always had a statement that makes perfectly good sense for you to think @. Please don't do this....everrrrrrrrr....neverrrr....think @ ending anything. This is the way I feel @ that...THAT IS A PERMANENT SOLUTION TO A TEMPORARY PROBLEM. You know what I am talking @. It's true that GOD loves you and believe me many more people do to. The future holds many good things. So don't feel like that. If you want to write to mefor anything...I am here...as you can tell I have so much love in my heart for people and just want them to be happy. I write songs and used to play the guitar(i am a character)then I had the accident. I used to be famous..lol ..reallly I was as my son says it to his friends. I sang in a theme park called Opryland USA, in a show called Country Music USA. It was great. I have two boys, one that is 17 and he just turned that on the 16th. He has been turned against me. It's strange how things are just the opposite here. I love my son and lost him. He didn't want to leave, and cried and used to call me at night until they found out and took his phone privelages taken away. He can never call me. He can't even have a picture of me and his dad has turned him against me and I am so worried @ him. I pray that he doesn't feel hate in heart for anyone but I see it. If he could of stayed here he would have love there and been a totally different person. He says that he doesn't have a conscience(if that is spelled right). It's just not fair is it? My son wanted to be here and you don't want to be there.Life sometime just isn't fair, but we have to be strong to withstand what comes our way.
     I hope that in some way your life wilI be straightened out. I will pray for you and have faith...prayer works!! :)

Always here...be checking on you..Karen...your friend:)

[heatherlynn22]

and i hope some of this was able to help you!!

[heatherlynn22]

you do have to be 16 to pick but usually around 12-13 the judge will hear you out and what you have to say. if it's a compassionate judge and you do have proof that they're hitting and beating you i don't see how your mother could possibly get custody. just make sure you take pictures of the bruises and cuts from them hitting you! also is you see a psychiatrist or therapist sometimes they'll testify about mental abuse if there is any which also helps.

my mother went through this same thing with my brother and his dad. only he didn't have custody only visitations..my mom was going for full custody and won because of the mental and physical abuse my brothers father put him through.

[sleep96]

ok thanks cause i thought you had to be 16 to pick a side thats good to know thanks im not going back down till May 1st so till then im locked myself in my room.

[heatherlynn22]

tell your dad what's happening. if they hit to the point you're bleeding show him and get photos. you guys can use that in court to prove abuse. i'm not sure how it is where you live but if you go in front of a judge and tell him who you want to live with s/he should take that into consideration. i know here in pa once your 12-13 you can speak to the judge and express who you want to be with full time. and if there's enough evidence of abuse the judge could (and should imho) grant full custody to your father and step mother.

[sleep96]

ok so i was forced by my mom to come back down with her by her.but the next time im down with my dad(next week)i swear to god im staying there and never coming back to this hell hole

[haylie710]

thats great that u get to move in with your dad, you will be free =] i cant wait to c how that goes, ur story absoloutly broke my heart ='[
im glad ur getting help though.

[sleep96]

i got some good news :) i might be going with my dad step mom and step brother who love me! im going ther in about 12 hours now for my monthly stay and i might stay there forever!this will relax me more way more. its like heaven my bros hate it there so im safe from them my mom hates it the (duh!)so im safe from her.i will be going to public school again so i will get friends.my dad lives in a nice neiborhood.and i can talk to them about everything and my dad might get custidy without visits of me so im free! i hope this goes well.we will see and i will keep u guys updated.

[Judy246]

God loves you and He doesn't make mistakes.....don't be so hard on yourself and tell an adult how you feel. In order to get help, you must help yourself first....tell any adult that you need to talk.

[new_lupe]

Wow thats harsh I wish that I could help you out.

[haylie710]

I agee with pink2385, you should call an abuse hotline. You really should get the help you deserve, if you are good at drawing and writing stories, u should be able to share them with someone, and if you call for help, you will get it, and they will find someone who will encourage your artistic abilities, and who will give you the proper care. Just image how good you will feel once you get through all this, because knowing you got through the hardest time anyone should ever have to face, you will no nothing will stand in your way. And being able to draw and write is excellent, you should be proud, I am always here for you, my mother is abusive too, but not that extreme, but i still know the toll and effects it can have on a person, feel free to message me anytime.

[pink2385]

Have you tried calling an abuse hotline? They can remove you from your current situation, which is probably what you need and/or want right now. A phone number for the National Domestic Violence Hotline is 1-800-799-7233. If you need to talk to anyone, feel free to message me, and ill be sure 2 answer u back withing a day at the most. I hope things get better for you.