I'm not a conspiracy thinking person. I think stress and anxiety makes us more susceptible to such thoughts. I won't debunk all of your theories, I don't have to. Time usually does that. :>) To me, you sound like you have a tremendous amount of anxiety. You are young and I think some racing thoughts and our mind going in different directions and a lot of curiosity, questioning and wondering about things goes with your age. But if it stems from anxiety, it might be beneficial to find a professional to talk to. My son is 16 and sees a counselor. It's helpful. He can keep things in perspective and helps him strategize to keep his anxiety in check. I think it helps to have a good friend to run our theories and mind's wanderings by and chat with. Someone with like thinking can be helpful. Any friends interested in talking about this stuff with you on the phone or something if you can't get together with friends right now?
Well, that's a lot of stuff you packed into a small space, so you've proven so far that you're a very thoughtful person. But there is a difference between conspiracy theories, which aren't in fact true, and speculation about things we have no answers for yet. The fact you believe in something doesn't make it true or even possibly true. So some intellectual rigor would be a good thing for you to look into -- a healthy skepticism works both ways, in that it allows you to test the expressed thoughts of others but also of yourself. The 5g thing is just wrong. It is a genuine conspiracy theory. People trying to brainwash you isn't a conspiracy theory, that's true in the sense people are constantly trying to get others to believe what they want them to believe or what they themselves believe because humans are insecure and like company. You're trying to persuade us with your post that your theories are correct just as you perceive correctly that others are trying to get you to think like them. Now, this is a lot for someone your age, you're too young at this point to have accumulated enough learning to know about the evolution of human thought. In the western world we had a period called the Enlightenment that totally changed how most of us think about our world. People started questioning superstition and authority, and that remains today. Others have never accepted the Enlightenment, and you can see this most clearly in orthodox religious thinkers who hold on to beliefs about how things happen that science has proven to be false. At some point, you have to proceed from belief to proof if you want to try to settle some of the things you think about. So it's great to think about things, that's what makes scholars and writers and truly creative people. It's not great to just believe stuff because you saw it somewhere. So I agree with Mom above that you might want to consult a therapist again due to the anxiety part of what you're saying, but therapy won't help you if you aren't honest with your therapist. You have to open up. As to being sectioned, can't speak to that, but if you're not a danger to yourself or others that isn't likely to happen. So let's look at some of your stuff. You're very young and use drugs. Your brain isn't fully developed yet, so best to wait for that kind of thing until it is. But you can't generalize so much -- sometimes you do see things more clearly on drugs and mostly you don't see things as they actually are at all on them. But there's another question you are struggling with at a younger age than most of us do, which is, what is real? It's not a bad question. Life doesn't actually make a whole lot of sense, which is why living things are programmed not to think about such things a whole lot. I say this just to reassure you, thinking about things isn't a bad thing. Making yourself nuts thinking about things is. And conspiracy theories are always bad ideas to get involved with, as they are always by definition wrong. If they were right, they wouldn't be conspiracy theories. It's hard being 16 and having these kinds of thoughts, but it's who you are. So use it to learn. If you're unsure about 5g, see how it actually works, how the radiation isn't what you think it is, and you've been living with 4g all this time anyway. It's faster but not as different as you're convincing yourself it is. This is the difference between thinking and reasoning, and just accepting. It's really hard to be a thinking and reasoning person. It's easier to just accept. But not better. In short, chill.