Hi I'm Austin and I'm 17 years old, this will be my first time posting.
For over 2 months I'm been suffering with severe neurological issues and physical symptoms that I have been to tons of doctors and psychologists for. It is most similar to brain damage and dementia, but also has some symptoms of dissociation, including extreme derealization and depersonalization.
I've done tons and tons of research and there is no known psychological disorder or neurological disease (that I've researched) that could be causing my unusual symptoms and everything points to the fact that it is brain damage. I am already suffering from Bipolar, OCD and GAD. So I am almost 100% sure that it is dementia from brain damage. I have come to a few possible causes from physical problems.
Brain damage from possible upper respiratory infection, ear infection (leading to meningitis or encephalitis), wisdom teeth infection, B12 deficiency/Pernicious Anemia (already present GI Tract Problems), Heavy Metal Poisoning (from smoking metal shavings out of a pipe). I also have a history of drug abuse.
My past drug abuse in order includes: Generic allergy pills (I took 16 of them twice two years ago!) that's "high" sort of mimics my current condition, gas huffing a couple times, marijuana, legal marijuana (k2 kush), and prescription medication abuse (almost OD'd on Adderall). The biggest conclusion I could come to from all of these is a bad interaction between Marijuana, Benztropine, and Risperidone. Because the two days I had been on Benztropine after prescribed it I smoked marijuana on it which gave me adverse reactions and then three days later all of my symptoms developed. They are as follows (none are exaggerated):
Almost completely impaired cognitive ability
Change in mental status
Extreme difficulty processing information, and I never "take anything in".
Extreme difficulty expressing my thoughts
Extreme difficulty understanding others, lots of misinterpretation
Issues with reading (eyes skip all over the page), writing/typing (mind goes completely blank and I mess up almost every sentence)
Shortened attention span (complete inability to focus at all)
Inability to understand abstract concepts (for example: extreme difficulty when trying to follow a movie's story)
Severe Memory loss (short term and long term similar to Global Amnesia) I forget what I did or said 30 seconds before and I'm starting to forget how to do basic things and remember simple things like people's names (even family members) or once familiar places.
Altered level of consciousness (I am always very tired, feel extremely distant out of my own body, and sometimes I have "mini-blackouts" that last for about 1-2 seconds.) I do many things subconsciously and impulsively.
Dissociation (life looks like a cartoon or movie, distant from my body, identity problems, peoples faces seem unfamiliar or changed)
Extreme paranoia and fear, I always have a sense of fear and dread at all times and am very scared to even walk around the house. This is accompanied with delusions and hallucinations.
Some slight delusions and hallucinations
Changes in vision (palinopsia, visual snow, loss of night vision, black spots), hearing (distorted perception of direction and distance), and sense of touch (some feeling loss)
Numbness and tingling in the hands and feet
Neck pain, stiff neck
Spatial Disorientation (many times I do not know where I am when I wake up from sleep or close my eyes)
Inability to sense time (5 hours is an hour to me)
Diminished sense of smell and taste
Trouble walking correctly, abnormal gait
Loss of coordination
Hand tremors, shaking
Increased Sensitivity to sound and light (was already sensitive before)
Difficulty falling asleep
Sleep disturbances (Onset)
REVERSED SLEEP CYCLE(It started with 3-4 sleep disturbances every night and occasional nightmares, this continued for a few weeks and then my body refused to sleep anymore, after that I staying up all night and sleeping all day. Surprisingly my body likes this better but this is the only way I can sleep)
Increased Depression (LONGING FOR MY OLD LIFE)
Increased Aggressiveness (exacerbated Bipolar symptoms)
dependent on others
Like I said none of these are exaggerated and I'm not some stupid pothead teen who is uneducated and who has "a little brain fog" or "a little memory loss" from smoking weed. To be honest there are even more symptoms that don't come to mind right now. This is completely and utterly debilitating and it seems to be progressively getting worse. I already had significant cognitive problems before this even happened. But believe me when I say it's 100 times worse and there's way more symptoms that can be explained by that or any psychological disorder as far as I know. Many of the symptoms are exactly similar to dementia, which I know is impossible to get at my age unless you have brain damage, which is another supporting factor in the theory that I have brain damage. I'm going to a neurologist in a few months but I refuse to be like this and not try and figure out what it is, since all I can do is sit around I might as well anyways.
I also want to add that substances such as MARIJUANA, ALCOHOL, and NICOTINE worsen all my symptoms. As soon as I ingest them it exacerbates all my symptoms, dissociation peaks and I start tweaking like someone coming off meth, my heart races and I start hallucinating. and freaking out because nothing is going through my brain. NOTHING. Especially no memory when I smoke Marijuana.
This was extremely hard to type, but I think I got most of it down. So I'm hoping someone here can give me some insight or make some sense on what's happened or is happening to me. If you have any questions about my symptoms or anything else please ask. Thank you