It’s quite a pedantic turn of events but I’ll do my best to pack the meat of it.
Let’s just say it wasn’t necessarily random, but mid summer I started having some issues like never before, basically it was a mix of my strength and gears that keep me going were zapped dry and it felt like something was eating at me.
And NO, this wasn’t a mental issues that some doctors have questioned, which if you ask me that’s just their fancy way of saying “I don’t know and I’m just as confused as you are.” I’ve dealt with mental issues before and trust me, THIS was 10000% physical/neurological. Even at the time of my worst mental days I never ONCE lost access to my full physical faculties like I have during this. A lean guy like myself does NOT lose 15 lbs in a month over MENTAL. I wouldn’t bother going to the doctors if I knew this was a mental issue.
So I wasn’t necessarily weak but I sure as hell didn’t have any thrust/burst gear like I normally would. It was far worse than fatigue, I’ve dealt with fatigue before and this was a whole different animal. For instance, if I walked even a block down the street my brain would be triggering my body to not go any further.
My ANA test came back positive but whatever they tested for beyond that came back negative. I started TRT in November and although things have a normal feel to them(aka it doesn’t feel like something is eating at me) I, myself am not back to normal.
After 6+ months part of me has to be a realist that whatever I lost is flat out never coming back. So I guess for starters maybe this is something you can help me with:
1) I’m able to eat consistently but I never get that distinct hunger craving anymore
2) I can get aroused and get it up but not with that raging/throbbing arousals that I’d get before
3) After working out after a long layoff, I wasn’t getting that sexy/burn feeling the next day.
All 3 of those things are 100000% intertwined, I’m just not sure exactly what my body is lacking or stopped producing. Is it possible to absolutely fry/burnout ALL of my dopamine?
I know I’m a bit all over the place but it truly just makes zero sense at all.