According to my school's psychologist, I have Social Anxiety Disorder. I agree on that, but I felt it goes much farther and I think I have several other personality disorders. I believe this based on the symptoms (is this correctly spelled?) that I found. According to what I found, I should have Social Anxiety Disorder, Paranoid Personality Disorder, Avoidant Personality Disorder, Schizoid Personality Disorder, slight Schizotypal Personality Disorder and slight Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder. I reread articles about it very carefully and try to compare it to what I go through every day and I can only confirm that I SHOULD have those, but I'm not sure.
My Questions is... Is basically want to know if the following symptoms that I have are enough to consider msyelf a person who had these personality disorders. The Social Anxiety one has been confirmed, so I won't talk that about that anymore. Here are the personality disorders and each symptom I mentioned is I symptom that I do have.
Paranoid Personality Disorder:
Definition: People with paranoid personality disorder are highly suspicious of other people. As a result, people with this condition severely limit their social lives. They often feel that they are in danger, and look for evidence to support their suspicions. People with this disorder have trouble seeing that their distrustfulness is out of proportion to their environment.
---> There is not a single element in here that doesn't apply to me
Symptoms that I do have:
-Concern that other people have hidden motives
-Expectation that they will be exploited by others
-Inability to work together with others
Avoidant Personality Disorder:
Definition: People with avoidant personality disorder can't stop thinking about their own shortcomings. They form relationships with other people only if they believe they will not be rejected. Loss and rejection are so painful that these people will choose to be lonely rather than risk trying to connect with others.
---> Again, not a single element that doesn't apply to me.
-Be easily hurt when people criticize or disapprove of them
-Hold back too much in intimate relationships
-Be reluctant to become involved with people
-Avoid activities or jobs that involve contact with others
-Be shy in social situations out of fear of doing something wrong
-Make potential difficulties seem worse than they are
-Hold the view they are not good socially, not as good as other people, or unappealing
Schizoid Personality Disorder:
Definition: Schizoid personality disorder is a psychiatric condition in which a person has a lifelong pattern of indifference to others and social isolation.
--> Same as above
-Appears aloof and detached
-Avoids social activities that involve emotional intimacy with other people
-Does not want or enjoy close relationships, even with family members
--> This last 1 is sad, but I do experience the same. I'm 18 years old and I don't like my parents. You may think now "a lot of teenagers don't like their parents". But they say that because they weren't given permission for something or because they had a quarral. For me it's different, I really hate them and I'm planning to move as soon as I can. To make it more clear: When I move, I don't want them to appear in my life ever again.
Schizotypal Personality Disorder;
Definition: People with schizotypal personality disorder may be very disturbed. Their odd behavior may look like that of people with schizophrenia. For example, they may also have unusual preoccupations and fears, such as fears of being monitored by government agencies. More commonly, however, people with schizotypal personality disorder behave oddly and have unusual beliefs (such as aliens). They cling to these beliefs so strongly that it prevents them from having relationships. [People with schizotypal personality disorder feel upset by their difficulty in forming and keeping close relationships. This is different from people with schizoid personality disorder, who do not want to form relationships.]
--> I do not have this last thing that I put between [ ], based on the symptoms, I believe I may have a slight form of this (everything mentioned before that [ ] applies to me).
-Discomfort in social situations
-Inappropriate displays of feelings
-Odd behavior or appearance
-Odd beliefs, fantasies, or preoccupations
I also think I may have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, but this topic is quite lenghty already and based on the definition of this last disorder, it's far from as worse as the ones above, so I'll not discuss it.
Please keep in midn that every symptom I mention is one that I do have. I personally am afraid to go to a psychologist in real life, because I'm afraid they'll not believe a word of what I say. I'd rather have a doctor help me via the internet. I'm willing to do more profound tests via the internet, I just would look these personality disorders to be confirmed.
As for the final remark: I'm a very unlucky person and I hate admitting that I like something. I also regularly am depressed and I only have a few friends. I hate my parents, I haven't visted some uncles and aunties in more than 4 years. I haven't visited my grandparents from my father's side since 2007 and I only visit my grandparents like twice per year. I'm very nice and friendly to everyone, though, and I think respect is a very important thing. Sometimes I get the feeling that I was born for bad luck and I think it's important to admit that I've considered comitting suicide a few times already. I strongly believe that all this is not just because of the Social Anxiety Disorder, but I believe it's because of a mixture of various personality disorders. I'd really want someone to help me. I'm 18 years old, I feel i've been surrounded by bad luck my entire life. Knowing that probably at least another 50 years are ahead of me, I'm quite desperate, but too scared to find help in real life.