Please give me some knowledge since I'm too scared to see a doctor, lol.

[brattyos]

Hi, I'm a nearly 20 year old college student, and I've been dealing with this issue since mid-to-late 2017. I honestly can't remember the first day it happened; probably because now I've gotten too used to it. Since near the end of 2017, I've been dealing with this weird sensation in my body. My eyes would cross, my right arm would feel tense, my right side of my face would feel weird, and overall, I described the feeling as numbness. Then it progressed to my toes curling, and if i remember correctly, my right hand tensing up and curling inwards. This reaction or whatever would happen nearly every time I stood up or would walk a maybe 20 feet after standing up. Then it stopped for a while. Then early 2018, it came back. All through 2018 I dealt with this. Eyes crossing, hard time trying to keep my hand from tensing up and prevent my arm from flailing in front of me. The straightening or flailing of my arm felt instinct, but now I can't remember if I do it to shake off the tense feeling. It's now 2019, and now, my left hand tenses up sometimes when I have this sort of episode. It only lasts about 5 seconds max. There's been a few times where only my hand would tense up and fingers curl inwards for a second. I forgot to mention that I think my jaw tenses up as well. I've tried talking in private when I had an episode, and I don't think I sounded coherent. As for respiratory, I honestly don't know if my breathing gets ragged during this or not. It's all kind of a blur, as I get so focused on this tense, numb(?) sensation. I've already speculated that it could (or is) some type of seizure. Can anyone give me a more clear understanding? I have terrible social anxiety, and I always think the worst every time I think of going to a doctor.

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Extra information:
Mid-to-end of 2017 was the beginning of my senior year. I started to get headaches that became incredibly frequent towards the end of my senior year (April - May 2018, I believe). It was also the time I realized I was having migraines as I had never had a migraine or a headache that bad before.
I am not an athlete, and I've begun to work out maybe 6 months ago. I am not overweight.
Nearly my entire life I've dealt with and/or been dealing with a nutrition intake issue, due to lack of appetite and pickiness. Lately, my appetite has been coming back (probably because of college), and I'm eating more often. I never had anorexia nervosa.

[Campaigner8]

You are describing neurological symptoms that to you must be quite terrifying. Especially in light that you are afraid of Doctors, and you were minimizing the symptoms. Firstly, know that the vast majority of Doctors are caring, empathetic individuals who are very knowledgeable. The good news is that Doctors deal with patients who are fearful of medical professionals everyday. It might be daunting at first, but once you get in to see the Doctor, I think you will feel relieved that your symptoms are being addressed. A likelihood of a painless MRI or CT scan, EKG and blood work to start. That will rule in or out most neurological disorders.

[VeggieCowgirl]

I'm going to repeat what everyone else is saying.  You absolutely, no doubt,  regardless of if it's happening now or not, need to see a doctor as promptly as humanly possible.  
I'm not going to even get into what it could or couldn't be.  
The fact is, with the symptoms that you've described, this could be something very serious.
I'm not trying to scare you but these symptoms are alarming and a bit of fear here is warranted.  I just really want you to know that this could be very serious and you need to fight your doctor anxiety and get seen immediately.
You must not downplay your symptoms and request an MRI if they don't suggest one.  
Please see a physician soon of not now.

[backhurtz]

You really should see your doctor. Are the symptoms tied to a sudden headache?  Your best bet would be a neurologist, since the headaches and other symptoms could be related.

[TSRK]

IF it is  there for two good .. there is good new and bad news... good news it is not fatel  and  bad news is it  needs medical assistance...
Did you check ur BP  and good to see doctor  ask head MRI...   I am also scared to see doctor...  best thing to overcome is.. go multiple times... so that .. you get out of that fear

[specialmom]

So, first, everyone needs to get over fear of seeing the doctor.  MOST of the time, our health worries turn out to be unwarranted and it is nothing serious.  A fear of doctor makes me think you have anxiety in general and that makes our health worse in that we over focus on things related to whatever health concern we have and then we feel 'more'.  This is a very common phenomenon with anxiety.  Second, if you are the rare person who's health issue is of concern, not treating it makes it worse and harder to recover from.  It's like shooting yourself in the foot.  So, your first hurdle is actually overcoming this unnecessary fear of going to the doctor to be checked out. Most universities have health clinics right on campus.  Or call your parents and go at home to a regular doctor your family sees.  But no one here can diagnose or treat you over the internet!

As to what is going on, it is hard to say.  Could this be related to food intake and blood sugar?  Possibly.  Also, dehydration can have symptoms that are similar.  Those are easy answers.  More complex would be something neurological.

You are clearly very bright and articulate. This could be something not terribly difficult to get reassurance and some ideas about what is going on if you speak to a health care provider near you.  good luck

[brattyos]

*** I would like to add that this does not occur for months on end but rather for a week or two straight and then it would "disappear" and then come back maybe nearly a month or less later. It's such a vicious cycle; I always think that it's gone for good then it comes back.