awake but woke up from dream - head buzz

[Xavior]

I was awake and I literally woke up from a dream. Like I snapped out of a trance that I was living for 18 years. I'm 19 now and becoming more in touch with reality but my mind always seems to wonder away from reality. Most of the time I won't know what i'm doing.

I always zone out and day dream, my thought patterns are always out of the norm or completely different than other people around me. Sometimes I feel stupid and retarded but I know it's not my true self expressing myself. I find it hard to express myself on point.  Ever since "waking up" i'm realizing more and more mistakes I made throughout my life.

My head often rushes and it feels like it's going at a million miles an hour which sometimes makes me uncontrollobly control my body.. especially when i'm around a lot of people. it's like my mind is so alert.

CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WHATS GOING ON WITH THE DREAM AND OR ANYTHING ELSE THAT MIGHT MAKE SENSE?!?!?!

[CCF HeartMD8]

Your symptoms are too complex to answer from an internet site. You need to see a internist, psychiatrist or psychologist to evaluate your symptoms.

[Xavior]

I was having a conversation with 2 of my friends and I don't think it was related to me or my life at all. Keep in mind when I socialize i'm mostly exploring my own thoughts rather than investing 100% of myself to any convo. It's very difficult for me to carry convos most of the time..sometimes it's the easiest thing.

But anyways I was just thinking about my past/current life a lot and just snapped out.

[RockRose]

what caused you to suddenly "wake up" after living all 18 years of your life in a confused fog?