Whats causing this or what is this?

[Jens11]

I haven't posted in some time and things are getting better but I am just very frustrated with how things are going better. I stopped taking anxiety and depression medication and started doing a regimen of binaural beats, mainly holosync and a few others to help heal my mind and body, maybe even my spirit some if you want to go into it. It sometimes feels like a lot, and would just like an answer or explanation for it. Things started going downhill when I started going on a paleo/primal diet, and ive been on it for close to a year, around the same time, I just started acting or being different.

Eventually I was on depression and anxiety medication, but quit it since I think I am doing fine. Some things havent changed at all though and it seems however much I improve, in some areas things get worse. I am fatigued at times, and I am not able to think clearly, theres also weird sensations, and sometimes headaches I get as well. My jaw has been hurting some too but not as much, its mainly on my right side, it clicks and cracks from time to time, I think it might be TMJ or time to have my wisdom teeth removed. Thing is I dont have money or health insurance to do either.

I haven't quite told anyone but its like as soon as Im at work im stressed/anxious and im constantly aware, maybe even paranoid of others around me. Like looking around or out of the corner of my eye. When I was really young I had autistic tendencies, and ive been shy but ive been working on it hard.

I know its not good to think about it and feed into it but I know I dont have best reputation at work and I think some people think im a bit crazy lol. I never used to be like this, though I have lost a lot of weight, I went from 290 to 260 then im about 240-250 now. Im working on getting out of my job since it drives me nuts and feels like a dead end but I think it has a lot to do with it. Especially when in the past when I was extremely fatigued and my bosses/coworkers would ask me why im working so slow but idk what exactly to tell them.

I even went home early one day when I told them I was having some troubles and told them about me being fatigued and other symptoms I have, like almost passing out and told me to tell him but whats that going to change, im just going to go home and its still going to be there? Sometimes my coworkers and my bosses, they just drive me nuts, they can be big douchebags/assholes at times...

Im still concerned about things and just would like to know if its just all in my head, am I going crazy or what? It feels sometimes like theres no way out.

I try to open up to some people about it but they just keep saying the same thing or similar things and it drives me so nuts.

[Jens11]

Im also unable to afford any counseling sessions, and had a hard time looking for local available counseling for people with low income, in fact due to the fact I dont have health insurance I had to pay out of pocket for a doctor visit and to get medication in the first place.

[emm95]

Well thats a very good reason for quiting your job if it is making you feel like this honestly and maybe it is for the better and find something that suits you more maybe. But no one should be expected to work if they feel like this

Hope this Helps

Emily

[Jens11]

okay thanks, Ive started taking some more supplements as well and they seem to help. One is Sam E which some one mentioned in reply to an earlier post of mine.

Im working on quitting my job, I dont mean to make excuses or reasons but its really all I have. I've wanted to quit for years but my job is a big source of a lot of my problems.

[emm95]

Hi, well for starters you are not crazy at all. ok . I think you need to go to the doctor and tell them exactly what you have told me here so they can referre you to a physcologist for some therapy. Im not sure what could be wrong in sorry about that. And also it maybe a good idea to change jobs if your bosses are stupid and like the old saying goes a change is as good as a holiday!!!

Hope this helps

Emily