ok so i have an embarrassing scenario. i heard online that you could get a pleasurable sensation by stopping your pee in mid stream. so i tried it and it didnt work. any way i tried pushing while my flow was stopped..eh not good. i dont recommend it. this was like four years ago and i did go to a doctor the day after, but i didnt tell him why exactly i was concerned i just said "i have a pee problem" and so he was confused and sent me to have a pregnancy test and thought i had a uti. this is what happened that day: i felt a pop, on my left flank and ever since then have had disuria and in the last two years, signs of edema in my thighs, and one night i got really really hot and couldnt cool down...felt toxic. and my hands and feet are recently cold all the time..sings of circulation problems. i just want to know what can i do, im trying to treat it naturally, because im embarrassed to see the doctor, i also have anxiety, so having the doctor not understand me, when i knew what i was talking about just made me frustrated and anxious. i have like a burning pain on the left side. and the night after this happened i peed out white cloudy pee, i had taken cranberry juice to try to cleans myself but it burned so bad. i was wondering if the pressure could have burst a hole in a ureter tube, but i cant find anything like this on the internet. i dont do stupid stuff like that anymore believe me. this happened when i was 16-17 and im 21 now,..symptoms keep showing up, my legs feel heavy and im worried it will get worse.