Abortion and depression

[SOSAD05]

I am 18 years old a sophomore in college and i had an abortion at 18 weeks. I am struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts because i wanted my child but i knew i could not have it.  I do not wish to be judged i just need some help but i have no one to turn to because i went through this alone...... I apologize to my child everynight and pray the he/she is not mad at mommy (tear) some one please help me because i dont know how to cope because i dont know who to reach out to ..... Thank you

[babyscience]

I have never had an abortion, but I know how you must feel.  Just know in your heart that you made the right decision for you and the child.  This will be something that you will have to deal with for a while, perhaps for life.  I think you should try to seek an unbiased couselor to help you through it and maybe get on some anti-depresants.
Try to focus on college and finish up everything you need to do.  You are given the chance to do that.  After college you will have the time to find a good job and really focus on making yourself happy and completing everything you want to do in life!  

[Lissyloo]

hey hun
i know exactally what u are going through
i was 15 when i had mine, and i wanted it more then anything, i didnt want to tell my mum but my cousin said i had too saying she would support me, i told my mum, my mum went on about how i would be hopeless and booked an abortion straight away
i also pray for my child every night because i feel horrible aswel
but i no that i cant change what i did all i can do is look forward to trying my hardest when i do have my first child at making there life perfect for them and doing the best i can

if u ever want to talk drop me a msg im happy to talk when ever because i no how hard it can be

i was made to see a counsellor i personally found it worse tho...

many hugs and kisses its not your fault ur still a great person!