Hi. I am 31 years old and I have always been terrified of the gyno! I can make it to my appointment and I am ok but then I freak out when the exam is about to begin. In the past, I have made it though an exam (barely). However, it is getting worse, for the past 3 years I haven't been able to make it at all. I just have to leave the office.
This also affects my sex life.I don't think I even have sex, I think it gets close, but doesn't actually happen. The other day my boyfriend and I were trying and I just started crying out of nowhere. I have no idea where all of this anxiety comes from! I've been in therapy for years, but it hasn't done much.
Also, I feel my maternal instincts lately. I am getting older, and I do want to have kids, but is that even possible for me?
All of my long-term relationships have ended due to this anxiety and I feel completely hopeless.