So for a long time, roughly 4 years I have had a thick, white vaginal discharge.
At first I assume an STI.
Got a full STI screening and nothing, all clear!
So next on my list was thrush.. did multiple thrush treatments... would clear the discharge for a couple of days then back again.
I have spent the last 4 years of my life in and out of doctors trying to figure this out because to be completely honest, I am starting to give up.
This is causing me severe anxiety and depression.
I have done countless tests...
every single one of them, and last week I was told it was just a heavy normal discharge.. and it will NOT go away
I need to live with it but I can't. I really can't. I know my body and I know it is something.
Let me rewind a little bit..
I had a miscarriage two years ago... I blamed the discharge on it I felt like it must have been something to do with it (as you can see i am starting to loose my mind over all of this)
but as of the last year, my periods are irregular and heavy. They also only last 2 or 3 days when they used to last 5 to 7 days,
I get horrible cramps out of nowhere,
my underwear is stained from white discharge,
I have sudden urges to urinate and i can not seem to hold it for as long. I feel dirty and unclean. I am embarrassed to have sex with my boyfriend (he knows nothing about this either)
I have hid it from him because i feel so disgusting)
He has never noticed it because every time we have a ''heated moment'' we cant just fall into each other, I use the same excuse every time that I need to pee first and I will quickly go to the bathroom and have a clean around with tissue to make sure nothing is there..
Not very romantic when I have to push him away from me when he tries to be intimate so I can run for a ''wee''.
I am 21 years of age..
and this is my last shot at some kind of help or some type of answer or advise in what to do..
I am at my last straw with this.
I am driving myself crazy every day thinking,
''What if it is cancer, what if it is aids'' ...
all mental things to think but I can't stop.
Please can someone help me?