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A little about me
I decided to post a little about me and my family. 1st of all I have anxiety. I have phobias and social fears. I freak out when I have to talk on the phone. I'm on meds for anxiety allthough I take it everyday I don't always write it down. All my life I thought I had depression until about two months ago when I was diagnosised with bipolar disorder. I don't have any friends in real life. My family and I are on the outs. The only person I have is my Mom. We live together but we tend to argue a lot. I admit sometimes I start it but not always. She has mental problems too at 1st she was told she was paranoid schitzophrania and recently found out she was labled schitzoaffective. We are stuck at home a lot. Sometimes I feel like I'm all alone. That's why I came on here to just be able to talk about it without feeling judged by the world. To talk to people who can relate to someone who is like me sorta. Sometimes I feel like I'm going crazy. I don't know why I feel this way and have since I was in my teens. Well anyway you can post something to me or you can talk about you if you want or your life or whatever. I guess that's all for now.
Yeah right. I just need to face it this is going to be the worst Christmas ever! It will be cancled and we'll have a ten minute celebration. Then it's done. Finished. So much for a good Christmas. I think no one cares anymore. So it looks like all the fighting tore my family apart for good. Also it's effecting my mom too. Now all she does is cry. So she is reallyy depressed too. Maybe even worse than me.
That's to bad. I was hoping it would work out. Well there is still time. Maybe they'll change their minds. I don't know. Positiveness isn't really something I'm good at. I guess I'm more positive that good things happen to other people but only bad for me. So anyways hopefully it works out. You must be pretty bummed right now. Well let me know what happens soon ok.
Take care.
Take care.
Well since many of our family members either are irritable or paranoid it makes it difficult to have a great time together. We're thinking about just having our own seperate dinners and drop off preasants. That's how upset everyone is. So it may be to late for my family too. It's not my household with the problems. We aren't agiast anyone. So if it gets cancled we may be going for short visits to each place and try to salvage what's left of our Christmas. It all began when they wanted to not come. And now other family members may back out of it. So it may be ruined. I'm really mad and sad because of it.
The good news is my parents, my brother, and my sister and I went out to a dinner. That was the good part about today. That's all though. We did have fun being out. I guess that's all to say now. So I'll write later.
Take care
The good news is my parents, my brother, and my sister and I went out to a dinner. That was the good part about today. That's all though. We did have fun being out. I guess that's all to say now. So I'll write later.
Take care
Thank you. I apriciate. Yeah anyone with mental problems is welcome of any type and people who think they could have a mental problem and of course people who know someone with a mental problem or think that person has one are all welcome.
It's to bad about your family. So why is it that all of this is going on? Do the relitives feel like black sheep or something? Just wondering. I'm not planning on doing anything with my family. Our issues are so bad they are beyond repair. I don't really want to deal with them anyway. I guess that's not helping. Just because it is to late for my family doesn't mean it is for yours. Who knows maybe they'll make up. Maybe it will be ok. Not all families are completely hopeless. Well I hope it works out for you.
It's to bad about your family. So why is it that all of this is going on? Do the relitives feel like black sheep or something? Just wondering. I'm not planning on doing anything with my family. Our issues are so bad they are beyond repair. I don't really want to deal with them anyway. I guess that's not helping. Just because it is to late for my family doesn't mean it is for yours. Who knows maybe they'll make up. Maybe it will be ok. Not all families are completely hopeless. Well I hope it works out for you.
I think it's a good idea. You don't want to exclude anyone or anything. So is any type of mental problems included then? Sounds like it. I know I sometimes feel like I stand out. I can feel weird at time. Maybe it just rund in my family. Maybe most of us have undiagnosed problems. Sometimes it seems like we are all losing our minds. Meaning my family. I'm becoming bummed out cuz I think the issues are starting to come out. So I'm upset. One of my relitives is thinking about not coming. So I don't know what's going to happen. Christmas may not turn out so well after all. I don't know what's going to happen. Maybe we should all just forget it and stay home and celebrate with those living with us. It maybe less complicated that way. I just wanted to vent for a bit.
If you like your idea you should go with it. It could become really popular. You never know. I bet there are a lot of people on here that do care even if they aren't writing. I don't think any of them will leave but if they do they'll be missing out cuz this really is a great place to talk and stuff.
I hope you two have a great day.
If you like your idea you should go with it. It could become really popular. You never know. I bet there are a lot of people on here that do care even if they aren't writing. I don't think any of them will leave but if they do they'll be missing out cuz this really is a great place to talk and stuff.
I hope you two have a great day.
No I don't really think it would be strange if the fonder disapeared. Things happen. Life gets in the way. I hope I don't disapear. As long as I have internet and this forum is still active I won't be going anywhere. I still plan to keep this name. I don't plan on changing it or anything as long as I don't mess it all up. I do have a journal. Maybe I shouldn't have started this group but I thought it would be nice to have one group where anyone is welcome to talk about their issues, get support, advice whatever. I mean there are a lot of great forums out there that have their own lables. There are usually many groups of people in each forum. Like I'll go to Bipolar forum then go to OCD forum then visit schizophrania forum and there are different sets of people on those forums. I thought it would be a nice place for people with different types of mental illness or people who know someone with that could just chat and make friends even. Maybe right now it's not that sucessful. Maybe it never will be. It all started when I was browsing the forums and the groups and didn't see schizoaffective disorder. That is what origally gave me this idea. I mean there's a schizophrania forum which is cool and all. I'm glad they have it but I would feel silly posting about my Mom in that forum because it may be off topic. I just didn't want anyone who has a mental problem weather it be personality disorders, phychotic problems, diagnosised or undiagnosised problem where you think there is something wrong but don't know what it is but you are barely living because you feel so alone and weird you can't stand it, or even if it's something like ADHD or some other problem. Those are some of the things that can be shared here. I just thought it would be nice to just chat and get advice or vent or get suport. I mean we all have different problems that cause different symptoms, but are we really that different. We're all just people who are struggling with illness. Sorry if I went on and on. This wasn't being defensive. I wrote all this out to also remind me why I should keep this group around. So when I get discoraged and start thinking Maybe this was a waste or no one cares or I don't think it will be sucessful anyway so what's the point. So now it's in writing. So when I feel that way I can come back to this post and remember this was worth it. And this is why I did this and why it is so important to me.
Thank you to anyone who is listening.
Thank you to anyone who is listening.
I think we both are. I'm really hypersensitive to rejection.
I probably wouldn't continue posting here (although it has it advantages). I feel a bit too stink to start writing stuff though and not follow through.
I don't think it would be all due to us, just that other people have other interests or get their needs fulfilled elsewhere.
This forum might start seeing a little more activity over Christmas when the experts are away.
That sounds like some other sites where there may only be one person in a chat room. Quite sad really. But sometimes people don't even bother to log out and people thinks there's still someone there.
Do you think it would seem a bit strange if the founder disappeared? Maybe then they would have to give the role to their new user name?
Sometimes I wonder why you started this group as sometimes I think a journal would be as effective.
I need to go do some work. I was suppose to be helping tidy up the place for when my brother and his g/f come in a couple of days time. It just hasn't been happening. I have zero motivation. Strange really because usually I would care -a lot.
Catch you later.
I probably wouldn't continue posting here (although it has it advantages). I feel a bit too stink to start writing stuff though and not follow through.
I don't think it would be all due to us, just that other people have other interests or get their needs fulfilled elsewhere.
This forum might start seeing a little more activity over Christmas when the experts are away.
That sounds like some other sites where there may only be one person in a chat room. Quite sad really. But sometimes people don't even bother to log out and people thinks there's still someone there.
Do you think it would seem a bit strange if the founder disappeared? Maybe then they would have to give the role to their new user name?
Sometimes I wonder why you started this group as sometimes I think a journal would be as effective.
I need to go do some work. I was suppose to be helping tidy up the place for when my brother and his g/f come in a couple of days time. It just hasn't been happening. I have zero motivation. Strange really because usually I would care -a lot.
Catch you later.
I agree. I worry too about people leaving. I'd feel pretty bad if that happens and with my luck it could. I already get rejected enough in real life. I don't need it here. I don't know maybe I'm taking this all to personally. I can't help it. That's just how I am. I'll think that I must be boring or lame or sound stupid or something. I'm sure I'll blame myself even if it really isn't my fault. I know I shouldn't feel that way but it would make me feel as I failed or something. That I didn't do a good job with this forum. I shoudn't feel that way. I just get so excited when someone joins. Like maybe this forum ain't so lame after all. Maybe it was a good idea. I was hesitant on creating this forum. I wasn't sure if it would be concidered a good idea or not. I sometimes see forums with only one person the creatator of it sit there alone from months ago and of course I worried that could happen here. But I'll feel somewhat relieved if there is at least one other person on here than just me. But I hope that no one leaves, even if they don't want to talk. It's ok. I mean I hope they do. I'd love to hear from them but if they don't want to it's ok. Maybe some members are shy or have other reasons for not typing. Maybe they want to know more about us. We do tell some personal stuff and I'm sure we both feel exposed sometimes. But hey there is one bright side if I end up looking like a loser I can always get a new screen name. That's the good thing about internet chatting. If you blow it you can always start agian. Maybe someday I'll be up to showing my most personal experiances. After all I did go this far.
I guess some do. My biggest fear is that they do and then don't care for what they read and then leave. I think more than anything it leaves me feeling a little vulnerable/ exposed.
I guess that is what I do in my own life, or rather have done. It is easier to criticize someone for participating and making a mistake than to make your own. It doesn't really help you to learn or grow though.
When I posted all those other headings I guess I wasn't expecting everyone to comment on all of them all the time. It seems to have diluted our own discussions somewhat.
I guess that is what I do in my own life, or rather have done. It is easier to criticize someone for participating and making a mistake than to make your own. It doesn't really help you to learn or grow though.
When I posted all those other headings I guess I wasn't expecting everyone to comment on all of them all the time. It seems to have diluted our own discussions somewhat.
Ok. Hopefully you feel up to writing more tomorrow. Do you wonder if any of the other members read our posts? Sometimes I do. I'm ok with that though but like I said it would be great if some commented. Anyway I hope we get to talk tomorrow.
Sorry for not writing much today. My doctor gave me some antihistamines for hay fever and it has completely wiped me out. Just sleeping mostly. I don't have a runny nose or itchy eyes anymore but I can't stay awake either.
It's ok that you commented here. I don't mind at all. It's nice that you care about your family. THat's not how I feel at all about my family. WEll except my Mom. I do really love her a lot. I look foraward to hearing more from you.
Take care now.
Take care now.
I'm doing pretty good. I'm just anxios about the Holidays mostly. Also I spent to much money on presents so it's going to be tough this month. I am stressed over finanial problems. I'm sure when I am stressed more I will vent. For now my mind is mostly on Holidays. I've been listening to Christmas music and watching the movies. Maybe I should have posted it on the other forum but I was right here and I haven't read it yet. I'm about to. I just hope there are no arguements. I hope everything works out. I care about my family and I hate when there are issues. That is all I can think of for now.
I'm glad you wrote. Also glad you had a good time. So how have you been? You can post it anywhere you want. I was wondering cuz I read your responces about us but I was wondering about what's going on with you. And yes. I'm glad I got to keep my internet.
Congrats. I'm glad you got to keep your internet. You must be very happy about that. I'm busy sometimes so I can't always be on. I feel like I've missed a lot. Well I celebrated Thanksgiving with my family and friends. I had a lot of fun. I haven't read all the posts but I'm about to. I hope everything turns out ok.
Sure if it helps you load faster. You can even come up with the name cuz I have no ideas yet for a new page, but if you want we can keep typing on this thread but if you want to start a new one then that's ok. You see I understand because I have had slow internet before. And I hated it. Luckily at that time I hardly ever got on the internet but now I get on all the time. This was just lucky. I hardly ever get a break so when I do I really soak it in. I don't know how I ever survived these past two years without knowing this website. It sure has helped me cope with my lousy life. But like I said we can start a new post but maybe you have a name. Maybe we should just name the post after us since we're usually the only two talking. Allthough that other person on here typed some and that person who posted a thread with a question, but other than that it's just us talking. Anyway I am so glad to have someone to talk to.
That's good. I know how difficult it can be when you lose a coping tool.
Our internet connection is very, very slow. When my brothers and sisters are home they give up on it because it is way slow. My brother said that to download a couple of things that took him 10 minutes where he was would take 11 years and 10 months on our computer. It's pretty slow.
Should we start a new thread. Loading all the posts takes my computer forever.
Our internet connection is very, very slow. When my brothers and sisters are home they give up on it because it is way slow. My brother said that to download a couple of things that took him 10 minutes where he was would take 11 years and 10 months on our computer. It's pretty slow.
Should we start a new thread. Loading all the posts takes my computer forever.
Nevermind about my other post. It's later and Mom got off the phone with them and they decided to work it out with us. So I will be on here after all. I really believed we were going to lose it or I wouldn't have posted it. So I'm in a really good mood. Yay I get to keep this internet! I don't have to get the slow kind. Or wait for 10 days. Woohoo! I'll write later today or tomorrow. Talk to you then.
Take care
Take care
I won't be on for at least 7 or 10 days but it may be longer because we are going to switch our internet cuz we can't afford high speed internet. So I won't be on for awhile. So wish me luck that I'll have to deal with my problems alone and not be able to vent. By the way this ***** for me. I'm not happy about it but it's either switch or lose internet forever. All this happenb cuz Mom made a mistake in her ledger so now I have to suffer and I have no money myself. So keeo me in your thoughts. I'll try to be on here as soon as I can. If you want to keep posting things I'll read it when I return to the net.
Hope it works out for you and for me so I'll be back on soon.
I had to write this fast cuz mom is cancleing now. Gotta goi bye.
Hope it works out for you and for me so I'll be back on soon.
I had to write this fast cuz mom is cancleing now. Gotta goi bye.
Maybe you should re-visit the advice the expert on the other forum gave you.
I think not having anything to look forward too really kills any drive and motivation.
I think not having anything to look forward too really kills any drive and motivation.
Lets hope so for both of us. It is a drag to be so down all the time. Pain isn't good. Also my situation of being a prisoner in my home. I hope things change soon. And hopefully we both find happiness.
As for today augh was terrible. The best part about today is that it's almost over. For awhile I didn't do much of anything wasn't in the mood. I'm feeling a bit better just hopes it lasts but I'm not holding my breath. As you can tell I'm not very positive or did I mintion that allready. I tend to repeat myself a lot so bear with me. It can get on peoples nerves.
So anyway take care.
As for today augh was terrible. The best part about today is that it's almost over. For awhile I didn't do much of anything wasn't in the mood. I'm feeling a bit better just hopes it lasts but I'm not holding my breath. As you can tell I'm not very positive or did I mintion that allready. I tend to repeat myself a lot so bear with me. It can get on peoples nerves.
So anyway take care.
No wonder you feel so down all the time. I hate it when our lives feel like virtual prisons. I think that if we really wanted to make some changes though we could. Just dealing with all the emotional stuff is another story. Maybe a bit too scary.
I went back to the dentist today. My wisdom teeth are infected and I have dry sockets. I think I've just about over-dosed on pain meds because I've been so sore. I don't generally use pain relief either.
I have my period too (sorry! Too much information) so are feeling a little withdrawn. :(
Hopefully things will look up for us both soon.
Take care.
I went back to the dentist today. My wisdom teeth are infected and I have dry sockets. I think I've just about over-dosed on pain meds because I've been so sore. I don't generally use pain relief either.
I have my period too (sorry! Too much information) so are feeling a little withdrawn. :(
Hopefully things will look up for us both soon.
Take care.
Yeah I needed to get out. And yes venting helps me but that's usually done in my diaries and not in public but I felt like talking about it with someone. As for going out more probably won't happen for awhile.
Actually here's more venting. The truck is actaully my grandfather's truck. And we used to get to borrow it, but now he lends it to my cousin non stop. So we hardly ever get to use it. And worst of all we have no car at all but he has one that his girlfriend can use all the time. I mean I'm ok if they use it and all but it's not fair that we only get to borrow it for maybe once a month if even that when he and his girlfriend can use it everyday. As for buying a car is out cuz we don't have that kind of money. And neither Mom and I can catch a bus we can't walk that far. We're trying to get aproved for some open door policy so if we get aproved that's the only way we'll even get to go out. Otherwise I'm out of luck as usual. Also I don't know how far these busses go so even if we are accepted we may still be very limited where we go. Hopefully we'll find out more about it later this month. But that is our only hope for going out otherwise I'll probably continue to go out only to see my head doc. Yesterday was just lucky. I probably won't get to just go out like that for a long time.
Actually here's more venting. The truck is actaully my grandfather's truck. And we used to get to borrow it, but now he lends it to my cousin non stop. So we hardly ever get to use it. And worst of all we have no car at all but he has one that his girlfriend can use all the time. I mean I'm ok if they use it and all but it's not fair that we only get to borrow it for maybe once a month if even that when he and his girlfriend can use it everyday. As for buying a car is out cuz we don't have that kind of money. And neither Mom and I can catch a bus we can't walk that far. We're trying to get aproved for some open door policy so if we get aproved that's the only way we'll even get to go out. Otherwise I'm out of luck as usual. Also I don't know how far these busses go so even if we are accepted we may still be very limited where we go. Hopefully we'll find out more about it later this month. But that is our only hope for going out otherwise I'll probably continue to go out only to see my head doc. Yesterday was just lucky. I probably won't get to just go out like that for a long time.
I expect you needed too. To both vent and get out.
Is there no way you could get out more? I'm sure it would be great for you.
Is there no way you could get out more? I'm sure it would be great for you.
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