im 7 days into detoxing off methadone at home

[Josh_702]

ok heres my story:
     I'm a recovering heroin addict & I've been taking methadone for the last 8 years. I've been taking 90mgs for the past 5 of those years. I'm at the point where I want to get off completely, so I've been tapering off for the past full year, and am now down to 42mgs. I feel uncomfortable everyday, the only thing that helps is my prescription for klonapin.
     I was tapering at 1mg a week but having a problem paying $45 week.
     There are a few things I prepared for my detox that I've learned over the years in rehab & detox facilities(and they seem to be working). Aside from a secure environment with someone being there for you to be supportive & keeping track of my medication and dispensing it, the drugs I'm going to use are:

   1. Clonidine (lowers blood pressure by decreasing the levels of certain chemicals in your blood. This allows your blood vessels to relax and your heart to beat more slowly and easily) - I have .1mg Clonidine, they also come in .2mg which are a lot better for detox. Ill probably take 1 every 12 hours.
   2. Klonapin (benzodiazepine) (affects chemicals in the brain that may become unbalanced and cause anxiety. Klonopin is used to treat seizure disorders or panic disorder) - I have a prescription for 2mg klonapins  I'll take as needed, I can take up to 4 a day.
   3. Vitamin B shots - That plus a few other vitamins will give me the nutrients I need.

     I got some Nyquil, ibuprofen & other multi vitamins, And have been smoking a little bit of weed to help, as its immediate. If anyone who has been through it, & has any suggestions for my detox other than what I have planned I would Really appreciate it!
     I know how hard it is to get clean, & i know the difference between being abstinent & sobriety. After my detox i will plan to go to meetings and get a sponsor, but right now I'm focused on detoxing & getting the painful withdrawal over.
    I'm now in my 7th day of methadone detox. The 3rd day I was still feeling lethargic & my bones were hurting a lot. That seems to be the thing that bothers me the most is my bones hurting, especially at night. They were hurting so bad, that by 2 am after some aspirin, I did take 2 Lortab 10's to help me sleep, & did get about 6 hrs of sleep the 3rd night, which was a relief.
I called my counselor & she advised me not to take Lortab, but if Anything, to take a tiny bit of morphine, because it more natural then Lortab.
So the 4th day I started getting a little more anxiety & started feeling more depressed, I could really start feeling the detox process beginning, the leg & arm pains, are getting to be VERY annoying. At night I cant sleep, even though I'm very tired & want to sleep, I cant because my arms and legs hurt so bad. I did end up taking 1 more lortab around 4am to help me sleep.
I'm really trying to stay strong but everyday my strength weakens and so does my will, I don't want to take the Lortab, but I feel very miserable not being able to sleep at night.    
  I've W/D from heroin many times, but have heard from many people methadone detox isn't as severe, but much longer, which makes it almost unbearable. I plan to have a bad detox for about 30 days, the the next couple months after will be the post withdrawal symptoms of not being able to sleep or eat well, but after a few months, I'm sure I'll start feeling better & well enough to start working and get this horrible addiction in remission.

  MY QUESTION IS: My friend gave me a few 60mg morphine pills, I wanna know if it will set me back OR prolong it at all?? As long as i watch how much i take and just take some every few days so i don't get addicted, will i be starting back at day 1, or will it prolong my withdrawal? or will i be ok?

[ydiedoit]

there's no easy way out. just had to qiut cold turkey from 45 mgs. Came down from 110 mgs the first year and spent  another year at 45. been sick as can be. Day 14 for me, diarhea has devistated me plus a 12 hr shift at work in 110+ Degrees. The only thing that has got me through is Christ. Thought i knew HIM before , oh how wrong i was. There is no drugs u can use that will make it better. Haven't slept more than 3 broken hrs everynight. I have noticed One day u think it is over don't be fooled it can take up to (from what i read) 2 months to get right again.  this is not going to be a easy raod. Get It Done And BE Done With It. Hope the best for u.

[sad14u]

Don't do it!  You will just be getting back on the same old merry-go-round.  If you were truly able to watch how much you take and control it and just do it every now and then you wouldn't have gotten addicted to start with.  Your brain is trying to decieve you and trick you back into your old habits.........Hold strong........tell yourself no......choose life and not a walking death.  You can do it!