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Just a week ago
1 week ago thursday, Sep 9, 7 weeks pregnant, I went to the er room and had an ultrasound done because I was having bleeding and cramping and I found out that the baby was implanted into my right tube and it ruptured my tube. 6 hours later I went to surgery (had to wait because I ate/ anesthesia reasons) Now here it is a week later I still have my hospital bracelet on, and I keep thinking that I should be preparing for a baby. I know the ectopic was not my fault but I cant help but keep thinking that there was something I could have done to prevent this. I find my self coming back to reality and needing to save everything i possibly have from this experience, Its the only stuff I have to grieve over a baby that I never even got see, hear or feel. At some moments I feel like I am a little crazy, should I be feeling like this even though I was only 7 weeks pregnant
I am so sorry for your loss I totally know how you feel except for my fax i not only did I lose my baby I lost my right tube as well. No matter the situation it is hard. I wasnt even able to get an ultrasound yet. All I have are the verification that I was pregnant, the pee stick and the hospital bracelet I got when I had to have the surgery to repair/removal of the tube. For 2 weeks all I did was plan for baby #3, my other girls already knew, and the family knew of the pregnancy. Its so easy to tell everyone the good news but when its the bad I just let it filter through. I didnt know what else to do, but someone told me one time that a pastor told her about her miscarriages and that was to actually name your baby (weather you felt it was a boy or girl) and just give it to God because one day you will go back and finally get to meet your child. I thought it was kinda weird but I did it and within the 2 weeks of losing my child I felt a big burden off my shoulders,that was just last week and now after my check up I cant wait to start TTC again but the doc said I had to wait 3-4 cycles. So now my future is looking bright again... SSBD
I am so sorry for your loss...
This week has been a bad dream for me. I just learned Monday that my little bean was gone. I went for an ultrasound last week and saw a little flutter of a heartbeat, but it was low. I went back this week and there was no growth, no heartbeat. I had a D&C Tuesday. This was my first pregnancy after TTC for almost 2.5 years. I was about 7 1/2 weeks along after a successful IUI. I just feel like everything was ripped out from under me. I do have a little ultrasound picture from last week . I can't even look at it right now, but I hope in the future that little picture will give me some comfort and hope. I am holding on to that picture and the few things I have from this.
This week has been a bad dream for me. I just learned Monday that my little bean was gone. I went for an ultrasound last week and saw a little flutter of a heartbeat, but it was low. I went back this week and there was no growth, no heartbeat. I had a D&C Tuesday. This was my first pregnancy after TTC for almost 2.5 years. I was about 7 1/2 weeks along after a successful IUI. I just feel like everything was ripped out from under me. I do have a little ultrasound picture from last week . I can't even look at it right now, but I hope in the future that little picture will give me some comfort and hope. I am holding on to that picture and the few things I have from this.
Im sorry for your loss... I also had a mc in july I was18wks.. Hardest day of my life.. I went in for my normal dr apt they could not find a heart beat on the doppler so they did a ultrasound no heart beat.. I had to delver my son.. I was in labor for 10hour.. I held my son... I sat there and cryed and didnt understand how this could happen.. I still go back in my head and repeat everything that has happen.. I still have my sons crib up in my room... The hosptal gave my pic of him but they r to hard to look at... Everyone handles things diff.. Im sorry for your loss...
The same thing happend to me.. I POAS and found out i was preg when went into the ultrasound they told me the baby was 12 weeks everything looked fine and was doing well.. Then she said theres no heartbeat, After the fact she pointed out the legs and head and the '' i quote perfect little face'' only to find out there was no point even thinking about it.. The second blow came when they wouldnt tell me what was going to happen to my baby and i ''wouldnt be able to cope with seeing it''..so i have no memory, no ultrasound, no anything to remember my baby by. Just a memory of a little purple line which dissapeared over time just like the baby its self... I believe im am going crazy, I still am very uninterested in alot of things. I can not watch tv with preg women and almost run past the baby clothes at the store. But its something many of mothers have been through before. Everytime i see a beautiful flower i think of my baby boy and let him know every night before i go to sleep he changed my world in so many ways.. I thank him for bringing me the smell of fresh cut grass and the sunshine.. Its the only way i can cope at the moment
I had a missed miscarriage about a week ago, so I know exactly how you feel. I thought me and the baby were doing fine, and went in for a routine 12 week ultrasound. Thats when they found that the baby had died inside me at about 9 weeks. It all came from left field. I had no symptoms, no bleeding, and no cramps. I'm devastated, and feel too as if Im going crazy. I'm super healthy, and have had no irregular periods or PAPs. I feel as if there is something wrong with me, and that I wont be able to carry a baby to full term. I know it happens to many women, but why me. I want to try again soon, and hearing all the success stories on this forum gives me hope. Any advice as to how to have a successful pregnancy after miscarriage, or is it in Gods hands??
Sorry bout that ... I held on to crazy things after my mc.
Yes!! each person deals w mc diff. I was crushed when I mc. I didn't even kno I was. I regret not going to the dr. Cuz I feel as tho I don't have anything to hold on to but the memory, and it should b enough but it's not. I want to ttc again and my SO. Wants to also but we r jus so distant lately... It's a long story but knowing that I can get preg now makes me want it more( I always thought I couldn't) I feel so empty inside I feel incomplete .. I still cry from time to time .. It's natural to feel the way u feel.. I completely understand. I held on to woe crazy things after my mc also!! Best of luck to u
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