Why did my ferret die? I am devastated

[von123678]

He began sleeping a lot for a few days, then suddenly began having seizures.The emergency vet wasn't sure what was wrong.Gave him an antibiotic injection and glucose to give him.
He continued to fit all night, I tried to comfort him and cried the whole time.
My own vet kept him in the next day but also seemed unsure.
Gave me home antibiotics,painkiller and special watern and food to syringe feed him.
He was weak but never had a seizure that night.
The next day i took him to the vet who wanted to put him to sleep.He seemed in no pain at that point so i took him home to say goodbye and asked the vet to phone the exotic pet hospital in the morning to see what else could be done.
Sadly he began to fit again that night and my sis and i decided we couldn't watch him suffer any longer.
The emergency vet put him to sleep.
He was lethargic,having trouble urinating,blood in urine, high temp and having seizures.
Don't think its insolumania, did i poison him ? Did he get brufen from my bag although i usually keep it zipped? Did i poison him with the odd bit of chocolate or the odd sweet? I didnt know it was bad for them and i had read ferret books.
Please don't be harsh, I've cried and tortured myself for 6 days solid. He was only one and a half and one of my prescious babies. i love and miss him so much.
I recently found that a small dose of diazepam would've helped his seizures, i just wish I'd gotten him to the exotic pet hospital or researched sooner.
I paid £160 and my baby died anyway. We buried him in a box in my sisters garden.
I am so miserable .

yvonne

[clafoutis]

i know how feel but you did more for your ferret then i did. I had 2 ferrets my female passed last christmas and my male i had to put down feb 2 of this year.... my male had the ferret cancer was loosing his fair started from his tail the cancer was located on the main vein and i couldnt do a surgery if it was on the other side there was a higher chance of survival...
my female i dont know what happen similar to your story but no seizures, i thought it may have been because she was a lil cold she snuggle and slept more but christmas morning i found her dead i was hurt i blamed my self i told my self i needed to take her to the vet but never did...
i now said i wont have a ferret again i think im the worse mother for one...

[I<3MedHelp]

So sorry to hear. I'm sure he had a great life thanks to you. I hope you feel better soon.

[BriexX]

My first ferret, Ozzie died about three years ago. He only had seizures, so I don't think it is the same. Ozzie only had diabetes... That's what caused the seizures and in the long run.. his death.

[von123678]

We could blame ourselves forever, my vet said we have to try to draw a line under it and move on. That we can go on forever with what ifs. I was more distressed  at him being so young and not sure if i did the right thing. He did sleep more but they do when they have a slight cold.
If i could go back and change things i would do it in a flash.We all would, I am sorry for your loss, ferrets are such amazing, funny characters. Like mini mischievous dogs. xxxx

[von123678]

Thanks x