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Topic for this week......
I would like everyone to share there stories about How they got clean/sober. well start this week off with an intro to how everyone got here. Thank you all who share there stories you never know who it might help, Just remember that.
What is the topic this week? It takes awhile for some of these groups to take hold. I will reply and so will a few others, I believe this will grow if a few of us stay on point. I know my ideas and thoughts are a bit intense or bizaar to some, but that is how my mind works. I am not always appropriate, but I tell it like I see it, no apologies, just a constant search for a better life. I hope this idea bears fruit. It would be nice to have some aftercare options around here.
How we got me sober? I tried for a couple years to taper or ct. My last respiratory arrest left me scared and with full knowledge that my death was near. I started asking friends how they got sober, most knew little or nothing about my use. I made a doctor's appointment, I went to AA, and found MedHelp. I took the advice I was given, whether I agreed or liked the idea, I just tried it. I started telling everyone about my addiction and told my connections to get lost, that didn't really work. The main thing that helped, was asking for help. I set it up where I would lose my family, income, and friends if I used again. If I would have relapsed on my last attempt, I doubt I would be alive. See we did it. Me and everyone I know detoxed me, and I continue to try and improve. For me, this whole journey revolves around BEING as good a person as I can, no matter how it feels. So I study everyday about addiction, diet, cognative development and tools. I am really far from perfect, so I hqve to keep chiseling away at it. I am grateful to be an addict now, it really pushes me to be who I always intended to.
Well, I guess my story will be next... I'm Karen. I became an addict about 2 and a half years ago...but I think I always had the genetic to become one..just cause of my family. My mom was a smoker, addicted to adderal and cigarrettes and alcohol on and off throughout my childhood.
I have scoliosis, which is a curvature of the spine..and it became very painful around age 25 or so. But I only went to physical therapy back then, no pills. I worked a steady job since I got out of high school at a nursing home..VERY active work as a dietary aide, then a cook.
But, a had a slight nervous breakdown and became diagnosed with bipolar and went on SSI. So, time was VERY much a thing I was trying to fill.
I had always been a heavy soda drinker and my teeth became terrible victims of that. I had MAJOR dental work, but my insurance would only take out a tooth at a time...and I had MANY. SO, I'd get one or two bottles of vicodin per tooth..I LOVED how I felt...the BEGINNING.
Then, my back started hurting, even though I wasn't working. The doctor did all kinds of tests, but only kept telling me to this DAY scolosis. So, she prescribed me Vicodin, found out I used them pretty quickly, and changed me over to tramadol. NON-addictive right? HA!
So, After all my dental work was done...no more vicodin. I began stealing it from my boyfriend, who was having foot surgery. Then, he had to go in for a pinched nerve and have a mental plate put in his spine...MORE stealing,only this time Oxycontin...oh boy.
BUT, this still wasn't enough. I had to find a dealer..and I found an older lady who needed to pay her bills...and get rid of 10mg vicodins..she found me.
So, I was stealing both pills and money to buy more pills from my boyfriend, who acted like he knew nothing was wrong...co-dependency I would guess...
I had to go through many withdrawls because everything was never nsync all the time...
But my last one..was this last week of june approx. I ran out of EVERYTHING. NO way to GET anything...I HAD to quit.
I wasn't happy...but as I was going through the withdrawl...I realized I was SICK of this...I couldn't see my daughter during these times, I let my boyfriend down SO much..and my family..and MYSELF. So..weeks became a month and here I am. Still having cravings...still depressed at times...and hating that damn stigma I'm still under...but proud of myself and functioning BETTER.
I always say I don't know if I'll go back...HONESTY. But I wanna keep taking it day by day...it works better that way :) I thank EVERYONE on this site...who I ever got advice from...cause i'm a better person for it :)
I have scoliosis, which is a curvature of the spine..and it became very painful around age 25 or so. But I only went to physical therapy back then, no pills. I worked a steady job since I got out of high school at a nursing home..VERY active work as a dietary aide, then a cook.
But, a had a slight nervous breakdown and became diagnosed with bipolar and went on SSI. So, time was VERY much a thing I was trying to fill.
I had always been a heavy soda drinker and my teeth became terrible victims of that. I had MAJOR dental work, but my insurance would only take out a tooth at a time...and I had MANY. SO, I'd get one or two bottles of vicodin per tooth..I LOVED how I felt...the BEGINNING.
Then, my back started hurting, even though I wasn't working. The doctor did all kinds of tests, but only kept telling me to this DAY scolosis. So, she prescribed me Vicodin, found out I used them pretty quickly, and changed me over to tramadol. NON-addictive right? HA!
So, After all my dental work was done...no more vicodin. I began stealing it from my boyfriend, who was having foot surgery. Then, he had to go in for a pinched nerve and have a mental plate put in his spine...MORE stealing,only this time Oxycontin...oh boy.
BUT, this still wasn't enough. I had to find a dealer..and I found an older lady who needed to pay her bills...and get rid of 10mg vicodins..she found me.
So, I was stealing both pills and money to buy more pills from my boyfriend, who acted like he knew nothing was wrong...co-dependency I would guess...
I had to go through many withdrawls because everything was never nsync all the time...
But my last one..was this last week of june approx. I ran out of EVERYTHING. NO way to GET anything...I HAD to quit.
I wasn't happy...but as I was going through the withdrawl...I realized I was SICK of this...I couldn't see my daughter during these times, I let my boyfriend down SO much..and my family..and MYSELF. So..weeks became a month and here I am. Still having cravings...still depressed at times...and hating that damn stigma I'm still under...but proud of myself and functioning BETTER.
I always say I don't know if I'll go back...HONESTY. But I wanna keep taking it day by day...it works better that way :) I thank EVERYONE on this site...who I ever got advice from...cause i'm a better person for it :)
Hello...My name is Kevin deLune, and im an addict.
My story: I started on vicodin and norco, precriptions from my wife and myself no matter how I had to get them. Even taking some from her bottles.We did binges where if we didnt have any pill wed go to liquer and drink so we didnt get the withdrawals of course that befor we had our son. this was probably in 2009 probably . we did this for about a year. Not doing Much more but fighting alot. I would wake up with black eyes scraps cuts you name it... all from myself going outside and falling on the side walk or hiting my head on a wall.... I even found myself sleeping outside a few times (Remember we live in the mountains so its not like cops are going to see you sleeping in your yard there. Well just after may 25, 2010 when my son was born. probably a couple months after this we had a big spill fight agian my wife called the cops and I got taken to a city alittle bit away and dropped off not arrested though. Just for me to get away and let the stitutation defuse at that point I went to AA for alittle while. and stayed away from the house an about a month in I was able to come back ... But have still been on pills. so the stealing never stopped. this would go on for about another couple years till around the middle of 2012 when I then admitted my doctor about the problem in which she put me on tramadol. Telling me it wasnt addicting. becuase I do have ligitament pain. my knee is twicked. They want to break it and realign it. but any ways thats what led me to the tramadol and still on the side I would take money from stashes from wife had and get extra pills so she thought I was doing good up untill she left me to her mom just recently in which is what made me flush my pills and come on here for help.. I love you people on here you helped me get my life back. as I told her about 4 days ago and she had agreed to come home so.. now im 8 days clean and not stoppping im going to kick this beast and keep it down..... Thanks you all for listening and im looking foreward to all of your stories.....(sorry for any typos these keys are sticking bad)
My story: I started on vicodin and norco, precriptions from my wife and myself no matter how I had to get them. Even taking some from her bottles.We did binges where if we didnt have any pill wed go to liquer and drink so we didnt get the withdrawals of course that befor we had our son. this was probably in 2009 probably . we did this for about a year. Not doing Much more but fighting alot. I would wake up with black eyes scraps cuts you name it... all from myself going outside and falling on the side walk or hiting my head on a wall.... I even found myself sleeping outside a few times (Remember we live in the mountains so its not like cops are going to see you sleeping in your yard there. Well just after may 25, 2010 when my son was born. probably a couple months after this we had a big spill fight agian my wife called the cops and I got taken to a city alittle bit away and dropped off not arrested though. Just for me to get away and let the stitutation defuse at that point I went to AA for alittle while. and stayed away from the house an about a month in I was able to come back ... But have still been on pills. so the stealing never stopped. this would go on for about another couple years till around the middle of 2012 when I then admitted my doctor about the problem in which she put me on tramadol. Telling me it wasnt addicting. becuase I do have ligitament pain. my knee is twicked. They want to break it and realign it. but any ways thats what led me to the tramadol and still on the side I would take money from stashes from wife had and get extra pills so she thought I was doing good up untill she left me to her mom just recently in which is what made me flush my pills and come on here for help.. I love you people on here you helped me get my life back. as I told her about 4 days ago and she had agreed to come home so.. now im 8 days clean and not stoppping im going to kick this beast and keep it down..... Thanks you all for listening and im looking foreward to all of your stories.....(sorry for any typos these keys are sticking bad)
mine well be coming later tonight itll be long
Great topic. I will be back in a little bit to post mine... Where's yours my friend...? Lol...be back in a bit.,,
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