Listen, suboxone is an extremely potent drug. Generally even hardcore opiate addicts upon first treatment are throwing up in their toilet bowl within 2hrs of a full 8mg dose. If you're doctor has you on these 2 drugs I'd say it's because he has weighed the benefit / cost to your health overall. If you suffer seriously from addiction issues then maybe that's a talk you should have.
If you are "feeling useless, immobile and uncomfortable" I hate to be the bearer of bad news but expect that to continue for quite some time. I think a fat lower dose of suboxone with a correspondingly lower dose of adderall (subject to change given severity of ADD symptoms is a good place to begin. In smaller doses over found (over 14yrs)that the benefit from their proper use is unmatched. I function enough on those meds to have completed my Degree in Psychology in 2012...but without them I can barely function socially or privately. I stop taking care of myself, I feel "hopeless" and unable to see am end.
. So I know of which you speak. My biggest problem is now finding a new Dr to continue my Protocol as even after 15yrs clean they "treat" me or "Judge" me as am addict, vs a person with significant mental health issues as a result of being minutes away from saving my mother from a murder.... I failed and that is the genesis of my anxiety, depression, ADD symptoms (I don't know if I have it but scored high enough to rattan treatment because I cannot concentrate).
I hope my experience with the "powerful" doses of these meds offers you some insight s and perhaps why you are feeling a "quit" meds and stay sick mentality over some type of alteration of dose or even alteration in course of treatment.
Good luck.
Hi there,
Oh my gosh, thankfully you're okay. I didn't post on your thread either but I was watching and very worried as well.....I am so glad to see you back here. ......sorry you feel full and sloshy, I know that feeling. ....don't cry, you don't want to drink more gatorade than you have to right? :o} smile
you're alive.
I'm praying for you girl......hugs. xo
No im home but I have to see my doctor every day. I just back home, I was in her office all morning. She's been running tests and taking EKG's, im so irritated right now over everything all I can do is cry.
Are you still in the hospital?
Ty for all the support and words of comfort. I feel stronger than I was yesterday, I can walk a short distance now before I get dizzy. My BP was low again so my doctor gave me IV fluids (ouch :( ) before she dosed me for the day. I am getting frustrated that im still dehydrated. Ive been drinking so much fluids I feel sloshy. I wanna feel better already im getting irritated. Im tired and cranky and im sick of getting poked, I hate needles :(
Ugh, if I drink anymore Gatorade im gonna burst. Ive been drinking the ones with electrolytes all day. It's giving me more strength but I feel so bloated :( I can walk without holding on to things for balance now. I am definitely on the mend and starting to gain energy. The withdrawals are gone and the cramping in my legs is gone. The Gatorade is helping a lot, I was able to eat finally, I had some crackers and a yogurt and even a banana. It seems like it's gonna be a slow mend so I have to take it slow and be happy when I make progress.
I still don't know how I got there. I know that I arrived there by ambulance cause I remember hearing the Nurses talking about it. I must have drawn attention to myself somehow or collapsed somewhere outside my home. I am really glad that I got there though and got the care I needed. I am getting very good care now and the withdrawal symptoms are gone after 3mg of Suboxone. I am stable and my doctor is sending me home for the night and ill return to her office in the morning. I just need to monitor my vital signs for the night and take the medicine she gave me and tomorrow ill get the tests I need. The rehab is holding a bed for me and hopefully in a week or so I can go. I am anxious about my heart and im hoping that it'll be ok and it can be fixed. I won't be able to go into rehab until I am medically stable.
Hi Sweetie- I'm glad you made it through that mess; we were so worried for you. How did you finally get to the hospital?
It sounds like you're getting good care and I think going to inpatient rehab is a terrific idea! Stay in touch now...
Welcome back!!!!!!!!!!!!! You are still in my prayers. God Bless and comfort you
The doctor got my test results. There is damage to my heart. She also thinks I have a blood clot in my brain cause when I walk I drag my left leg a little. My blood tests are all out of whack so ill need lots of vitamins. The damage to my kidneys is already healing and will be completely fine. I will need to see a cardiologist to find out if the damage to my heart can be fixed. She is putting me on blood thinners and ill need an MRI and some more tests to find out more about the blood clot. Its all very scary and it felt like a dream when she was telling me. I am very lucky cause it could have been a lot worse. The Adderall blasted my body for days and some people don't get to walk away from that. I am a lot stronger than I thought and now all im thinking about is getting better.My family have been sending me emails filled with love and support and when im stronger ill be going to an in-patient drug rehab to finish the Suboxone taper and then the 30 days of detoxing and recovery.
I'm certainly glad you came here. I am happy you are ready to fight. I know that scary feeling all too well. Hope it didn't get too annoying being told to go to the ER over and over. Oh yeah, you don't remember anyway.It's good to see a post that you are moving forward. You get another chance, you still have all the hope in the world.
I didn't post on your thread but I was watching you and I am sure glad you are ok and now under doctors care. Just keep trying and you will succeed !
There is a happy life beyond opiates. I have come to the conclusion that if I am not happy opiates are not going to make anything any better. Keep going
and soon you will be free ;)
Use that anger to get you through this. Please keep us updated and let us know what the doctor says.
I am sitting in her office in the quiet area just shaking while I wait for test results. I have never been this scared before. I know my kidneys are damaged and there may still be blood clots. I am watching the heart monitor as it takes readings every few minutes and it just makes me angry. I am not gonna let this crap beat me. No matter what the tests show I am going to keep fighting this. This is the closest I have came to death and it has given me a serious wake-up call. If I continue this crazy path I am going to die and that is just unacceptable.
I am SO glad to hear you are doing ok! We were all so worried about you! Thank you for checking in and updating us! Hang in there sweetie and push through!!! It does get better! I am here if you want /need to talk!
Glad you are ok. Adderall is one of the worst things you can take during opiate detox. We are already so anxious and crazy feeling that it ampifies everything and makes it worse. The few times I've taken it- 10mg; 1/2 of what my daughter takes I felt so jittery and speedy. If you have ADHD it calms you down; if you don't, you are taking speed. Keep on being strong; we are all in this together.
I am so glad that you are ok! I was very worried about you on Sunday and there was just no getting through to you. I know how rough you feel. I suffered massive blood clots in my lungs 3 years ago. That is the closest I have ever been to death and it really scared me. Let this be a wake up call. You obviously have a purpose on this earth and many more things to do as well as living to do. Please stick around. This is a great place to get advice and support. Stick with your taper plan and take good care of yourself. Chin up!
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