Just to preface the craziness you're about to read, I have major HIV anxiety, so bear with me.
I just got back from the OB/GYN because I found some white spots on my girl parts. I already have Lichens Sclerosis (LS) down there and thought it was that, as it causes tearing and scarring of the delicate tissues and I tear easily, even if I'm just wiping - NOPE, its genital warts and I'm freaking out. They said it was most likely a dormant infection from my ex-husband, who did have a genital wart breakout about 20 years ago, and I am experiencing an outbreak now due to either being immuno-compromised or high levels of stress (they're leaning towards stress, bad eating habits, barely sleeping, etc) but MY brain says its something more sinister because I haven't been the smartest with the guys I've dated since my divorce last year (there's only been 2, but still, its 2 with unprotected encounters)
So here I am again, thinking I'm dying even though I have taken one blood test in December (negative) and 3 OraQuick at-home HIV tests since March, and all were negative - one was 71 days after guy A, then one 130 days after guy A and 41 days after last time with guy B, and another just 2 weeks ago, which is almost 7 months after guy A and 90 days ago
after the last time with guy B.
But what if they're wrong? I do take Truvada for PreP and I know that could effect a test result, so what if that's the case here? I got really sick back in December, 3 weeks after sleeping with guy A (woke up on 12/27/19 and had a sore throat & headache that turned into a cough ans sneezing which then turned into bronchitis/URI that lasted 2 more weeks) but my PCP wasn't concerned. I was started on PeP after that encounter, took a month and started PreP.
I'm at loss here - part of me knows this is my brain acting out, but part of me is very scared.