Weird!

[Jessigift]

I have had protected sex with a csw about 3 4 yr back
I used a condom and it did t break
I seem to have almost all symtoms over the yeara while lymph nods and gland feels swollen
I have ised my mounth on her breasts and also kissed her body
I did  not perform oral recive normal oral sex but she massaged my anus and also given me handjobs with may be her vaginal fluid
I get canker and cold sores frquently now
I am planning to get married soon and she expect me  to have unprotected intercourse  

I am really worried
And i dont have the courage to get tested!

[AnxiousNoMore]

Don't waste your time testing for a disease you can't have. Cold sores (which you get from someone who has that permanent virus) and cankers are unpredictable so you shouldn't try to blame them on hiv (which you don't even have) or any other disease. The first step to peace is to stop Googling hiv and the second one is to stop looking at your body trying to find problems or "hiv symptoms" that don't exist.

[GuitarRox]

The only risks for HIV are having unprotected vaginal or anal sex or sharing IV drug needles.  If you used a condom and it didn't break, you do not have HIV.  Air and saliva inactivate the virus. You can't get HIV from anything you did.