Beanie0's MedHelp Blogs Medical communities and forums staffed by doctors from leading medical centers. Over 325 forums and communities providing medical information and medical help. en In desperate need - Panic Stations!! I've gained weight for real after telling people frequently over the years that I've put weight on wh Beanie0 Sun, 16 Aug 2015 23:23:03 -0400 My State!! Am presently trying to keep safe. Am on and of 'Manic', in fact my mood is all over the place. Grie Beanie0 Mon, 10 Aug 2015 21:49:14 -0400 May I ask for comfort? A puzzle of a Journal Entry I'm Afraid :-\ I am so sad and scared. I went to my Dad's Funeral today, it felt surreal. My friend came with me, Beanie0 Tue, 07 Jul 2015 20:37:28 -0400 I don't want to think anymore. I don't like the idea of thinking with out a safety net, I will fall dangerously, as part of being Beanie0 Tue, 20 Jan 2015 23:54:25 -0500 Sick of no comments What have I done wrong? Have I been too long on this site to receive replies now?? Feel ********** Beanie0 Sun, 16 Nov 2014 19:23:13 -0500 Not Alone I feel alone and afraid. I know that I am not alone. I'm living in a private state of utter confusi Beanie0 Thu, 16 Oct 2014 12:44:27 -0400 Have taken a more responsible attitude in regards to my 'array' of problems. The only way I reached to the point of taking a more responsible attitude has been as a result of a r Beanie0 Wed, 15 Oct 2014 20:56:35 -0400 What a Change!!! I have recently been on Holiday. I'm 39 years of age and haven't had a holiday since the age of 14!! Beanie0 Fri, 19 Sep 2014 18:27:09 -0400 Swimming! Swimming makes me feel contented, exhilarated, alive, awake, happy, free, proud, at one with myself, Beanie0 Fri, 18 Apr 2014 00:13:29 -0400 'Blank' Unable to word how I feel, but needed to express something. My Journal Entry left me a message saying 'can't be blank'. I felt...I can't articulate how I feel, Beanie0 Thu, 16 Jan 2014 05:25:44 -0500 I really don't know what to do. From self-observation (I spend so much time on my own!) I have reached a sticky point. I understand Beanie0 Fri, 23 Aug 2013 12:58:15 -0400 Doubt (sorry-I think I am needy) Have lapsed with the following in my life :- Alcohol, Eating Disorder. Struggling with constant intr Beanie0 Fri, 26 Jul 2013 16:56:29 -0400 Not good on my own I realize that with out my partner I am useless. My life feels a mess - my own creation, my own faul Beanie0 Sun, 16 Jun 2013 16:53:03 -0400 In a ??? Where am I and what is really happening? I think I'm having some kind of nervous breakdown. I'm beginning to believe more and more that the w Beanie0 Mon, 08 Apr 2013 23:10:32 -0400 ALONE I am so alone this evening. I feel at danger but can't do anything drastic. I feel terrible right n Beanie0 Wed, 26 Dec 2012 19:07:25 -0500 No Win I've had enough really. I dare not think too much in case I hit stuff in my mind that I don't want t Beanie0 Thu, 13 Dec 2012 22:53:13 -0500 LOVE My first thought is that someone will say something negative to this. I struggle with this, that and Beanie0 Wed, 10 Oct 2012 13:13:14 -0400 Oh Dear! :( Having a mainly rubbish time of it lately. My emotion/behaviours are wrecking my health. I feel I'm Beanie0 Fri, 24 Aug 2012 00:03:59 -0400 OUTCAST I am hurt from further acknowledged rejection from members of my family. The only reason why I am re Beanie0 Thu, 18 Aug 2011 02:32:32 -0400 It's ok I don't know anymore. Beanie0 Tue, 16 Aug 2011 12:50:30 -0400