https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1238036 Medical communities and forums staffed by doctors from leading medical centers. Over 325 forums and communities providing medical information and medical help. en I've gained weight for real after telling people frequently over the years that I've put weight on wh Beanie0 Sun, 16 Aug 2015 23:23:03 -0400 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1632604/In-desperate-need-Panic-Stations https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1632604/In-desperate-need-Panic-Stations Am presently trying to keep safe. Am on and of 'Manic', in fact my mood is all over the place. Grie Beanie0 Mon, 10 Aug 2015 21:49:14 -0400 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1625817/My-State https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1625817/My-State I am so sad and scared. I went to my Dad's Funeral today, it felt surreal. My friend came with me, Beanie0 Tue, 07 Jul 2015 20:37:28 -0400 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1580486/May-I-ask-for-comfort-A-puzzle-of-a-Journal-Entry-Im-Afraid https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1580486/May-I-ask-for-comfort-A-puzzle-of-a-Journal-Entry-Im-Afraid I don't like the idea of thinking with out a safety net, I will fall dangerously, as part of being Beanie0 Tue, 20 Jan 2015 23:54:25 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1341501/I-dont-want-to-think-anymore https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1341501/I-dont-want-to-think-anymore What have I done wrong? Have I been too long on this site to receive replies now?? Feel ********** Beanie0 Sun, 16 Nov 2014 19:23:13 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1267806/Sick-of-no-comments https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1267806/Sick-of-no-comments I feel alone and afraid. I know that I am not alone. I'm living in a private state of utter confusi Beanie0 Thu, 16 Oct 2014 12:44:27 -0400 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1237534/Not-Alone https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1237534/Not-Alone The only way I reached to the point of taking a more responsible attitude has been as a result of a r Beanie0 Wed, 15 Oct 2014 20:56:35 -0400 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1236761/Have-taken-a-more-responsible-attitude-in-regards-to-my-array-of-problems https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1236761/Have-taken-a-more-responsible-attitude-in-regards-to-my-array-of-problems I have recently been on Holiday. I'm 39 years of age and haven't had a holiday since the age of 14!! 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I understand Beanie0 Fri, 23 Aug 2013 12:58:15 -0400 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/851384/I-really-dont-know-what-to-do https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/851384/I-really-dont-know-what-to-do Have lapsed with the following in my life :- Alcohol, Eating Disorder. Struggling with constant intr Beanie0 Fri, 26 Jul 2013 16:56:29 -0400 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/830469/Doubt-sorry-I-think-I-am-needy https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/830469/Doubt-sorry-I-think-I-am-needy I realize that with out my partner I am useless. My life feels a mess - my own creation, my own faul Beanie0 Sun, 16 Jun 2013 16:53:03 -0400 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/796634/Not-good-on-my-own https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/796634/Not-good-on-my-own I think I'm having some kind of nervous breakdown. 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I struggle with this, that and Beanie0 Wed, 10 Oct 2012 13:13:14 -0400 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/562024/LOVE https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/562024/LOVE Having a mainly rubbish time of it lately. My emotion/behaviours are wrecking my health. I feel I'm Beanie0 Fri, 24 Aug 2012 00:03:59 -0400 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/543624/Oh-Dear https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/543624/Oh-Dear I am hurt from further acknowledged rejection from members of my family. The only reason why I am re Beanie0 Thu, 18 Aug 2011 02:32:32 -0400 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/308551/OUTCAST https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/308551/OUTCAST I don't know anymore. Beanie0 Tue, 16 Aug 2011 12:50:30 -0400 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/308226/Its-ok https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/308226/Its-ok