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Over 325 forums and communities providing medical information and medical help. en cool i guess i'm going to alateen now and also maybe losing weight again dreaming_ghosty Thu, 14 Apr 2016 00:01:40 -0400 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1946165/cool-i-guess https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1946165/cool-i-guess cool i'm back on tumblr which is really great! i've also started learning french! i don't know if i'll sta dreaming_ghosty Sat, 30 Jan 2016 14:02:15 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1862749/cool https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1862749/cool hm i might start outpatient, i dont know. i think this will be good for me. dreaming_ghosty Wed, 27 Jan 2016 20:37:31 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1860561/hm https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1860561/hm i don't get lonely i wonder why even after sometimes going weeks without talking to friends i barely ever get 'lonely'? dreaming_ghosty Sun, 24 Jan 2016 19:31:51 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1857397/i-dont-get-lonely https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1857397/i-dont-get-lonely haha oh boy well another one of my grandparents died so my mom is going through a lot. im falling back into eatin dreaming_ghosty Sat, 23 Jan 2016 11:56:16 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1856257/haha-oh-boy https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1856257/haha-oh-boy i should be happy, but once again am so numb she said yes, she is my qp! it's very exciting! i've also started watching x-files and i feel somethi dreaming_ghosty Wed, 20 Jan 2016 20:28:13 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1851243/i-should-be-happy--but-once-again-am-so-numb https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1851243/i-should-be-happy--but-once-again-am-so-numb sorry i haven't been updating this i've been super overwhelmed lately. i haven't self harmed in over a week but i'm constantly fighting dreaming_ghosty Sun, 17 Jan 2016 12:13:29 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1846150/sorry-i-havent-been-updating-this https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1846150/sorry-i-havent-been-updating-this platonic love is cool i asked her to be my qp, because i love her more than anyone else in the world. but i am repulsed by dreaming_ghosty Thu, 14 Jan 2016 23:19:24 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1843053/platonic-love-is-cool https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1843053/platonic-love-is-cool fear i am so scared that my sexual assault is just a fabricated memory, this is what keeps me up at night. dreaming_ghosty Tue, 12 Jan 2016 22:36:25 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1841002/fear https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1841002/fear school tomorrow i stayed home sick today because i was so anxious about my appearance, it sounds very self-centered a dreaming_ghosty Mon, 11 Jan 2016 21:08:07 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1839870/school-tomorrow https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1839870/school-tomorrow my journals aren't working it's glitching out, oh boy. i'm home sick from school and i miss josephine. my dad says if i can stop dreaming_ghosty Mon, 11 Jan 2016 13:28:32 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1839850/my-journals-arent-working https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1839850/my-journals-arent-working aaa i'm seeing star wars again today! i think it might be a good day. i've been really anxious lately and dreaming_ghosty Sat, 09 Jan 2016 12:22:17 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1836931/aaa https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1836931/aaa excitement rising my kylo ren figurine came!! i've been carrying it around in my coat pocket all day! i'm finally getti dreaming_ghosty Wed, 06 Jan 2016 23:01:50 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1834878/excitement-rising https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1834878/excitement-rising update i haven't been writing in this as much as i did for the first few days, i just haven't felt like it. dreaming_ghosty Mon, 04 Jan 2016 20:33:04 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1832781/update https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1832781/update post-funeral josephine said we would live together once we're both out of school, but honestly she's going to matu dreaming_ghosty Wed, 30 Dec 2015 19:18:19 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1826863/post-funeral- https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1826863/post-funeral- a funeral i'm going to my grandmother's funeral today. i'm so afraid of death now, i guess i've gone from one e dreaming_ghosty Wed, 30 Dec 2015 12:39:35 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1826838/a-funeral- https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1826838/a-funeral- a bit helpless i still have my psychologist who is just amazing, but my psychiatrist retired without warning and soo dreaming_ghosty Tue, 29 Dec 2015 14:26:33 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1825849/a-bit-helpless https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1825849/a-bit-helpless big sigh, numb mind my mother is most likely going to enter a rehab facility, she came home drunk again last night. it's dreaming_ghosty Tue, 29 Dec 2015 13:15:05 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1825846/big-sigh--numb-mind https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1825846/big-sigh--numb-mind also my grandmother died dreaming_ghosty Mon, 28 Dec 2015 22:54:49 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1824774/also https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1824774/also oh well i keep forgetting to update this. i feel dull and numb. almost disconnected, not quite. my cousin cam dreaming_ghosty Mon, 28 Dec 2015 22:50:05 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1824771/oh-well https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1824771/oh-well