https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/614508 Medical communities and forums staffed by doctors from leading medical centers. Over 325 forums and communities providing medical information and medical help. en I read another's journal that posed the question about pondering suicide, the intimate details of sui edmfender Mon, 04 Jan 2010 04:47:12 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/149329/After-Thoughts https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/149329/After-Thoughts My granmother passd away on November 29th. I penned this as a eulogy for her funeral. Please & Th edmfender Sat, 12 Dec 2009 10:51:48 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/143835/Death https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/143835/Death My 98 year old grandmother has been hospitalized for the past 3 weeks. Until then she had been physic edmfender Thu, 01 Oct 2009 10:05:05 -0400 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/125827/Grandmothers-mothers-daughters https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/125827/Grandmothers-mothers-daughters What do you call a reflective anticipatory time when you are able to sit down and give some thought t edmfender Sat, 25 Jul 2009 13:15:53 -0400 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/108678/What-Next https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/108678/What-Next Snuck out yesterday afternoon and attended a little pub on the southside of the City. Kinda felt lik edmfender Mon, 27 Apr 2009 12:44:09 -0400 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/83937/What-a-Jam https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/83937/What-a-Jam You have to understand the background to understand the signifigance to me of what has happened recen edmfender Wed, 15 Apr 2009 11:12:38 -0400 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/80351/Jamaica-Return https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/80351/Jamaica-Return Well, the band blew up. I am no longer employed, even at a part time measly basis. Gone is the only e edmfender Thu, 19 Mar 2009 16:18:32 -0400 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/72390/Unemployed-underacheiver-undone https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/72390/Unemployed-underacheiver-undone It was -33 degrees celcius not counting the wind chill factor here yesterday. No wonder there was ext edmfender Wed, 11 Mar 2009 06:13:01 -0400 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/69906/The-Coldest-Night-of-the-Year https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/69906/The-Coldest-Night-of-the-Year Because I told... Will you ever look at me the same? Will you ever call me again by name? Will you edmfender Sat, 07 Mar 2009 11:31:11 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/68778/Because-I-Told https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/68778/Because-I-Told I'm crossing my fingers until the final approval on hubby's vacation request goes thru today but it s edmfender Mon, 02 Mar 2009 07:41:08 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/66972/Jamaica-Mon https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/66972/Jamaica-Mon And it seems today I am... over little and seemingly big things. I've been trying to book a vacation edmfender Thu, 26 Feb 2009 16:47:25 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/65999/Cry-Me-A-River https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/65999/Cry-Me-A-River Started out as a quiet day after the kids left for school. I was toodling on my lap top trying to loc edmfender Tue, 24 Feb 2009 18:06:51 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/65390/Strange-strange-day https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/65390/Strange-strange-day These 3 a.m. wakings I've been having are reminiscent of when my children were babies and would wake edmfender Sun, 22 Feb 2009 05:29:54 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/64579/Middle-of-the-Night-Blues https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/64579/Middle-of-the-Night-Blues I feel like I'm on a tightrope suspended 30 feet above the hard concrete balancing without a net, a n edmfender Tue, 10 Feb 2009 10:31:56 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/61105/Tightrope https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/61105/Tightrope My days meld into one with no change from the norm. I wake, I do the same household humdrum cleaning edmfender Mon, 09 Feb 2009 15:13:42 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/60892/Over-Over-Over https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/60892/Over-Over-Over I took a bold leap...a leap of faith...a leap of sanity...not of hypomania...not of anger but one of edmfender Sat, 07 Feb 2009 14:44:26 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/60354/And-then-there-was-Thursday https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/60354/And-then-there-was-Thursday I am sitting her right now having consumed a lovely entire bottle California Cabernet Saviogon, a sn edmfender Sun, 25 Jan 2009 05:10:23 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/56439/Alcohol https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/56439/Alcohol I just left the bed where my husband and I of 20 years made love. Somewhat in the same old familar wa edmfender Sun, 25 Jan 2009 03:18:37 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/56434/Orgasms-Mental-Health https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/56434/Orgasms-Mental-Health Exhaustion has set in. I'm spent. There is no energy left. Not to say there is nothing to do, nothin edmfender Fri, 23 Jan 2009 18:15:40 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/56141/End-of-the-Week https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/56141/End-of-the-Week Yesterday was an interesting day. I think when I tend to be in a down mood my expectation is that bad edmfender Fri, 23 Jan 2009 09:51:41 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/56055/The-Good-the-Better-the-Frustration https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/56055/The-Good-the-Better-the-Frustration