edmfender's MedHelp Blogs https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/614508 Medical communities and forums staffed by doctors from leading medical centers. Over 325 forums and communities providing medical information and medical help. en After Thoughts I read another's journal that posed the question about pondering suicide, the intimate details of sui edmfender Mon, 04 Jan 2010 04:47:12 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/149329/After-Thoughts https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/149329/After-Thoughts Death My granmother passd away on November 29th. I penned this as a eulogy for her funeral. Please & Th edmfender Sat, 12 Dec 2009 10:51:48 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/143835/Death https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/143835/Death Grandmothers, mothers & daughters My 98 year old grandmother has been hospitalized for the past 3 weeks. Until then she had been physic edmfender Thu, 01 Oct 2009 10:05:05 -0400 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/125827/Grandmothers-mothers-daughters https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/125827/Grandmothers-mothers-daughters What Next? What do you call a reflective anticipatory time when you are able to sit down and give some thought t edmfender Sat, 25 Jul 2009 13:15:53 -0400 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/108678/What-Next https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/108678/What-Next What a Jam! Snuck out yesterday afternoon and attended a little pub on the southside of the City. Kinda felt lik edmfender Mon, 27 Apr 2009 12:44:09 -0400 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/83937/What-a-Jam https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/83937/What-a-Jam Jamaica Return You have to understand the background to understand the signifigance to me of what has happened recen edmfender Wed, 15 Apr 2009 11:12:38 -0400 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/80351/Jamaica-Return https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/80351/Jamaica-Return Unemployed, underacheiver, undone Well, the band blew up. I am no longer employed, even at a part time measly basis. Gone is the only e edmfender Thu, 19 Mar 2009 16:18:32 -0400 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/72390/Unemployed-underacheiver-undone https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/72390/Unemployed-underacheiver-undone The Coldest Night of the Year It was -33 degrees celcius not counting the wind chill factor here yesterday. No wonder there was ext edmfender Wed, 11 Mar 2009 06:13:01 -0400 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/69906/The-Coldest-Night-of-the-Year https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/69906/The-Coldest-Night-of-the-Year Because I Told Because I told... Will you ever look at me the same? Will you ever call me again by name? Will you edmfender Sat, 07 Mar 2009 11:31:11 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/68778/Because-I-Told https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/68778/Because-I-Told Jamaica Mon I'm crossing my fingers until the final approval on hubby's vacation request goes thru today but it s edmfender Mon, 02 Mar 2009 07:41:08 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/66972/Jamaica-Mon https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/66972/Jamaica-Mon Cry Me A River And it seems today I am... over little and seemingly big things. I've been trying to book a vacation edmfender Thu, 26 Feb 2009 16:47:25 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/65999/Cry-Me-A-River https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/65999/Cry-Me-A-River Strange, strange day Started out as a quiet day after the kids left for school. I was toodling on my lap top trying to loc edmfender Tue, 24 Feb 2009 18:06:51 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/65390/Strange-strange-day https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/65390/Strange-strange-day Middle of the Night Blues These 3 a.m. wakings I've been having are reminiscent of when my children were babies and would wake edmfender Sun, 22 Feb 2009 05:29:54 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/64579/Middle-of-the-Night-Blues https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/64579/Middle-of-the-Night-Blues Tightrope I feel like I'm on a tightrope suspended 30 feet above the hard concrete balancing without a net, a n edmfender Tue, 10 Feb 2009 10:31:56 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/61105/Tightrope https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/61105/Tightrope Over & Over & Over My days meld into one with no change from the norm. I wake, I do the same household humdrum cleaning edmfender Mon, 09 Feb 2009 15:13:42 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/60892/Over-Over-Over https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/60892/Over-Over-Over And then there was Thursday I took a bold leap...a leap of faith...a leap of sanity...not of hypomania...not of anger but one of edmfender Sat, 07 Feb 2009 14:44:26 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/60354/And-then-there-was-Thursday https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/60354/And-then-there-was-Thursday Alcohol I am sitting her right now having consumed a lovely entire bottle California Cabernet Saviogon, a sn edmfender Sun, 25 Jan 2009 05:10:23 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/56439/Alcohol https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/56439/Alcohol Orgasms & Mental Health I just left the bed where my husband and I of 20 years made love. Somewhat in the same old familar wa edmfender Sun, 25 Jan 2009 03:18:37 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/56434/Orgasms-Mental-Health https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/56434/Orgasms-Mental-Health End of the Week Exhaustion has set in. I'm spent. There is no energy left. Not to say there is nothing to do, nothin edmfender Fri, 23 Jan 2009 18:15:40 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/56141/End-of-the-Week https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/56141/End-of-the-Week The Good, the Better & the Frustration Yesterday was an interesting day. I think when I tend to be in a down mood my expectation is that bad edmfender Fri, 23 Jan 2009 09:51:41 -0500 https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/56055/The-Good-the-Better-the-Frustration https://medhelp.org/user_journals/show/56055/The-Good-the-Better-the-Frustration