I've wanted a girl for so long, and now I have her. Bad news is she isn't going to make it. She has Trisomy 18 and an omphalocele where her intestines formed on the outside. Even if she was carried to full term, they told me they won't operate on her. I'm devastated. I know she's going to be with the Lord, a much better place than here. Right now this weekend I've just concentrated on enjoying my pregnancy, feeling her move, and praying as much as I can.

looked good

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There's no hiding it anymore, my belly is big for being only 10 weeks along. I can't believe that I'm in maternity pants already. I went to a New Years Eve party and everyone rubbed my belly all night long..lol.
I guess when your body is in it's 4th pregnancy it knows exactly what to do right away!

I am so happy to announce that the spotting has subsided now for 3 days. I haven't had much cramping or any change. I have been having such a hard time explaining to people what's going on. I didn't really want anyone to even know that I was pregnant until I was like 7 or 8 weeks. My sweet hubby (bless his heart he is so excited) told his coworkers and living in a small town it spread like wildfire. I only told my mom, sis, and best friend. Now some of my other family members actually got their feelings hurt because they heard it elsewhere. But I have to explain to them the reason I haven't said anything is because I want to make sure everything is okay at the doctor on Tuesday first (which I am feeling VERY positive about).
I also noticed that when I say we couldn't see the baby on the u/s, and that I've been having spotting, and that I have hemmorhaging..they're like "Oh..okay." I don't know if they just don't know what to say, or what but I don't really feel like I have that much support. Most likely it's just that they don't know or understand what I'm saying I guess (as far as I know nobody in my family or friends have ever gone through this). But I do have the support of my husband and my mother and those two are the ones that have always been there for me anyway.
So I guess I'm just venting!