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NOV. 25, 2009

Nov 25, 2009 - 0 comments

WELL, I WENT TO MY DOC YESTERDAY AND HE SENT ME STRAIGHT TO A CARDIOLOGIST. I HAVE TO HAVE A LEFT AND RIGHT HEART CATHS DONE ON TUES, DEC 1st. I AM SCARED TO DEATH BUT GLAD TO BE ON THE PATH TO FIGURING OUT MY CONDITION.

Nov.19,2009

Nov 19, 2009 - 3 comments

I am so scared because I don't know what's wrong with me. I wish I had more support from my boyfriend, he's says "we'll worry when we know we have something to worry about." Guess what? I just gained 30 lbs of fluid in about 3 weeks, they found fluid in my lungs, I have shortness of breath, I'm tired all the time. That sounds like something to worry about to me. I know he loves me, I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm more behind on the housework than usual, and I'm a woompa-loompa. I'm scared I'll be more scared when I actually get diagnosed. Crazy huh, I'm scared that I'm scared that I'm scared. My nerves are shot. I'll end with that today.