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Feb 16, 2012 - 2 comments

So since Jan i have been seening a new RE its a female and I really like her she is on point, she knows her stuff. Well since I have seening her we have been ruling out all my reasons why I have not had a baby. She has been running all types of test which I like. She told us she will not do anything till she rules out everything possible. And so she has, she has found out that I will not need to be on metformin any more since it was cause more harm to me then good. Which is good for me, then she ran tons of blood and a genes test which all came back - all but one. She found my cause of why things have not been working and reason being is she found out that I have congenital adrenal hyperplasia. And it was because she ran a test to see and bam it came back + with high numbers 539. She told me she had read my files from long ago the same files I gave my old RE and she said he tought I had it and tested me and the numbers were even higher back then. So thats what made her test for it. I was so happy to hear that bad news only because now I got some type of anwers to whats going on with me. So she ran another test to see how really bad it is and I would have to be on  steroids for the rest of my life but she said it will get my hormones back on track and where they should be. So now im waiting to see what next.

My Journey

Jan 17, 2012 - 9 comments





ttc with PCOS







Well hello ladies, I been gone for almost 10months now and I have been on a long ride.
I want to start by saying how happy I am for each of you and reading all your success stories.

For those who remember that I have PCOS and have been trying for 13 years now, I had Ovarian drilling in Oct 16, 2010 and it was a great success I ovulated on my own in Nov. 2010 after the OD and was put on metformin500mg a day. I ovulated on my own in 13 years wow that was a great feeling. I was put on femara 5mg CD 3-7 in Dec, Jan and Feb all three months I had ovulated and my progesterone levels were great still BFN. March came and I ovulated all on my own since I was off the femara I got my progesterone test done the numbers were awesome, but failed to stick. Took a break to get my head back in the game April came and took femara5mg again CD 3-7 ovulated again and once again progesterone was great but BFN. May took a break and June was the femara and progesterone awesome again BFP and lost 5 weeks in. I was so heartbroken didn’t know why this was happening to us. I was still in for going again and trying to see but I had only one more month left of femara so I didn’t take it for July and August I Ovulated on my own and got AF each time all BFN… September came and I said here we go last try, BFN and that was my last pill. October came all was great I ovulated again on my own I had all the great signs and even implantation bleeding but lost it at 3 weeks. I had thought this would be it even the RE didn’t know what was going on, my PCOS was gone had no cysts the whole year and progesterone was awesome nothing lower then 20’s and no baby. Nov came I was only spotting for 3-4 days brown old blood, thought I still was pregos but went in on Dec 15 to find out no baby and my PCOS was back full force that’s why I was having all those pains on my left ovary and here I thought I had an ectopic pregnancy. I looked at DH and cried I was like that’s it its over for us there was 30 cysts just in my left ovary and that was my good one. I was so hurt and I am not getting any younger. I told DH this is the end of the road for us, we have to accept that I will never be able to give you a child. He told me he doesn’t want to give up yet I said we lost our chance to have a child three times already. I am so done I have no more fight in me.  
Now here is the thing we could have been parents to a lil boy, this girl at DH job was giving up her baby because she was young and could not support another child so she asked if he wanted to have her baby who still was yet to be born and this was one of the months I was on my meds and got a BFN. He told her no, in hopes that I would get a BFP that month and I didn’t he and I were not ready to adopt a child we were still having the hope that I would get that sticky BFP and would have our own. when we got that BFN then DH was taking and investigating about adoption but it was too late she gave her baby to another couple I was hurt and upset with him and myself for turn him away. Yes it was a boy what we had wanted. I was like god gave us a change to be parents and we turn it away now we have to live with that and we can’t blame god for not letting us have a baby I said to him. He gave us a once in a life time chance and we turn our backs.
Now we have to live with that. I have no other options I am done with meds and I have no way of paying for IVF, yes I know you need money to raise a child that’s not a problem for us, I just don’t have a way to pay for upfront payment of 20000k for IVF we even looked into a sergeant moms and that’s 40000k no way we can pay for that. I wish I had some one in my family who would carry my child for me but I asked my sister and she told me flat out no, because she would not want to give me my baby because she would get attached to it. I was so hurt and told her it would be mines not urs you’re just carrying it for me. Either way it would never happen since we don’t have that kind of money just laying around. So there you have it, my wits end.

Pain 6DPO

Mar 26, 2011 - 2 comments







ovulation tracker

I have a question, has anyone had AF like cramps after Ov. I have before but this time is much worst. and its more in the center not the left like the last two months. I am not sure if this is normal even my RE says it is. I am not sure if I should be having these types of pains. I would like to know if any one else had this happen to them. He told me to take 800mg of Ibuprofen but I only took 400mg. I am so clueless. Help.

Ripley’s Famous Fertility Statues

Mar 03, 2011 - 10 comments

Fertility Statues

Ripley’s Believe It or Not! – the global authority on the weird, strange and bizarre – is taking the Fertility Statues out on tour again throughout 2011. Two authentic African fertility statues, which 2,000 women believe may have helped them become pregnant,will be in display in the lobbies of several of our museums, FREE OF CHARGE!

A Little History
The five foot tall wooden statues were acquired from the Baule people of the Ivory Coast of West Africa and within a year of going on display at Ripley Entertainment’s head office in Orlando, Florida, 13 office staff and visitors became pregnant.
Following a three-year world tour  in  the late 90s, the company received more than 2,000 letters from women who had become pregnant shortly after touching the statues – even though many had been told by doctors they would never conceive.
The good news for any would-be mothers, the statues are now back on the road and have arrived at the Ripley’s Believe It or Not!  museum in Orlando Florida – ready and waiting to be touched. They are in the lobby and may be visited and TOUCHED completely free of charge. Ripley’s Orlando is open from 9:30 a.m. to midnight, 365 days a year.

The mystery of the fertility statues became apparent shortly after Ripley’s acquired them in 1993 from the Ivory Coast of West Africa. They were placed in the lobby of Ripley’s corporate headquarters in Orlando, and within months, 13 women – including staffers and office visitors – became pregnant. The only thing they had in common was that they all had touched the statues.

Since then, the statues have drawn tens of thousands of visitors around the world. Some people are very serious about touching the statues, strongly believing in their powers to help them conceive. Others want to avoid touching the statues – for the very same reason!

Over the years, Ripley’s has been flooded with responses from people who say the statues helped them get pregnant – including many who had been told by doctors they would never be able to conceive.
Frances Schauwecker says she is now pregnant after visiting the statues at Ripley’s Hollywood Odditorium – after 12 years of not being able to get pregnant.
Rachel Taylor was told by doctors that she would never be able to conceive. Willing to try anything, she flew halfway across the country to visit the statues at Ripley’s Wisconsin Dells Odditorium. Against all odds, she became pregnant in August of 2010 and is now the mother of a baby boy, Max.