Aug 23, 2013
From self-observation (I spend so much time on my own!) I have reached a sticky point. I understand that I tend blow problems out of proportion, and following a break up from my partner of 16 years, I'm absolutely tormented with intrusive negative thoughts and feelings. It was made more real today, after I received a message from 'him'. I may calm down as I understand that my emotional can be very up and down. My question is.......or my thoughts are - At what point to I ask for official help? I've been thinking/planning/day-dreaming about death. I'm not well physically due to 'self-neglect' and just unhealthy behaviors, especially alcohol. I have two friends in this world; and no partner. I get social anxiety, but at the moment I'm wanting to escape. I doubt if this makes any sense - 'I want to go far away somewhere in the world, on my own and die' I am laughing now at this, cos' I'm not a cat!
I really have no idea if I need to obtain official help right now. I say this because I'm all needy and emotional and over the top. In a few days time I expect I'll be in a totally different state of mind.
I don't want to waste peoples time.
What to do.....?!?