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Not good on my own

Jun 16, 2013 - 0 comments



not good



I realize that with out my partner I am useless.  My life feels a mess - my own creation, my own fault.  I just can't be normal!!!  I have such an odd identity with myself right now.  Communicating with people in one way or another has helped, but it gets difficult as I become tired very easily and feel unable to concentrate for very long - especially when I am typing.  I know this is just a bad phase in my life right now, but I wish it would all hurry up and change.  I am one screwed up woman.

In a ???  Where am I and what is really happening?

Apr 08, 2013 - 4 comments

I think I'm having some kind of nervous breakdown.  I'm beginning to believe more and more that the world we are in now is 'Hell'.  Doom and fear is taken over me and the odd thing about it all is that nothing seems real anymore.  I've never believed in an after life before, but who knows what's going on anymore.  I want to know where the dead people in this world really go?  Beanie0


Dec 26, 2012 - 2 comments

I am so alone this evening.  I feel at danger but can't do anything drastic.  I feel terrible right now and have nobody and do not feel able to talk anyway.  Stupid, stupid world and stupid, stupid me I guess too.  This world can be such a nasty place to be - I am supposed to be a mature adult at the age of 37, however I feel SMALL SCARED and ALONE.  :-|. P.S.  and STUCK

No Win

Dec 13, 2012 - 0 comments




I've had enough really.  I dare not think too much in case I hit stuff in my mind that I don't want to.  I guess this Journal entry was a bit pointless.

I'm lost
I've lost
Give in.