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Jun 24, 2010 - 0 comments

so now im down to 149 lbs, and im 5'7. I cant seem to put any weight on, and my skin looks like crap, and my face looks tired and yucky, which is killing me. I hold up a pic of me next to my face and it doesnt look like the same person anymore. I used to be pretty and happy, and i dont know why this anxiety stuff happened in the first place. I just had my gall bladder out a week ago, and i just feel awful. im so tired, i used to have so much energy and want to go and to everything, now its hard for me to get out of bed. But i do bc i have a 2 kids that i have to take care of. I just want to be the old kate, not this ****** version of me.

5:37 am

Apr 26, 2010 - 0 comments

Still awake, feel horrible. Just took a motrin and xanex waiting to feel better. Don't want to go to the hospital. Just want to feel better.


Apr 24, 2010 - 0 comments

i swear i think i have lymes disease. I was bitten by a tick over a year ago, and since then ive felt like crap. I was tested like one time, and that came back negative. But i read the times union today, and a 18 year old girl had three tests and they were all negative, when she really did have lyme disease. And i have all the symptoms of lyme. So now im going to have it looked at again.

another morning

Apr 22, 2010 - 1 comments

Well woke up and still feel horrible. Had a so called anxiety attack last night after fighting with husband. Had him drop me off at my parents house, since my mom is a nurse. I'm getting so depressed about not getting better. My mom thinks its my gallbladder and anxiety. I seem to think its my heart after a trip to the ER and them telling me I had a abnormal EKG, which then got me all upset. I don't feel like my happy healthy self, and I want whatever is wrong fixed.