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I am going to SCRAEM

Dec 18, 2010 - 5 comments
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Cancer

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dieing

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Agoraphobia

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dealing with anxiety

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Panic Disorder

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Addiction



OH my stars there are way too many people in my house...I can't find a place ware I can get alone...I can't get a corner or even the freaking bathroom....I know people want to be by me...But I need Space and this is a small house and I'm so mad I can't handle it...

OK I am going to be back because I need to vent...and Cry and ...

Dec 16, 2010 - 10 comments
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Panic Disorder

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Depression

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methadone

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Melanoma

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Cancer

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Melanoma stage 4



Hello Everyone,

Well gee how do you start this sort of thing. Um lets see this is my 3rd time having Guess what Kind of Cancer..Come on Guess....Melanoma ...Yep skin cancer...this is the one that will kill you and this time it is going to take mylife. How Long tell it does...We don't know yet....and Please because I'm giving you the facts don't you think for one min I won't fight this..Because I just looked at my  Tracker and I have been Off Of Methadone for 224 Days...WHOOT...YEPPIE ....HOT DARN.....

So anyway life is kind of sucking at this point...I am going on a Drug that I will Post to you all what the name of it is later. To tired to get up and look for it. Basically what happen is I think Most of you know I got off Chemo in March of this year. And when you have had Melanoma you get scans done every so often to make sure it has not returned. So I went um I think at the Begin of Nov. last Month..and found out that I had cancer again and this time the place it is at they can not remove it with out Killing me . So we will be doing a Drug that Helps about 7 to 10 People out of 100 stop there Cancer. So if they mean totally stop it or stop it from Moving much more. Have to double check that, or it could give me more time...they just don't know.

So let me let everyone know I need people that will let me vent and will just let me blow stuff off..I have to many family and friends that can't deal with me on facebook write now and I have to be honest the Loving People that have helped me here well there are So Many Nice people on this site and I really need to be around a site ware everyone is nice and helpful and listen's and I have to get Positive

Thank You for reading and I hope to talk soon
Loves and Hugs Rhea

Hello

Dec 07, 2010 - 3 comments

Just found out I have cancer again will try and be over to chat soon

Hello update

Nov 20, 2010 - 2 comments
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Cancer

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Skin Cancer

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Depression

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Addiction

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Anxiety

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Panic Disorder

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Agoraphobia



Hey sorry it has been so long for me to be able to get on the site. I was sick for a long time and then we had a family move in with us and then We all got sick again and then to top it off I had the scans I said I needed to have done to check for Skin Cancer and I have had One test kind of done or the doctor tried. You see it is on the top part of my lung and the area they have to get too is not easy it has 2 Major Blood Vessels and it is a part of one of them. So they can't take it all anyway, just a bit of it. Well the Doctor tried to go down my throat on Thursday and he could not get to it so the Heart Surgeon Will be Calling me on this Monday the 22 to set the date to deflate my lung get a bit of it and send it to labs and then I see my cancer doctor on the 30'th of Nov. So far this is what I know. I will try to get over here again. I have not been on the computer much and when I did get on it was facebook and Maybe some Mail..

Sorry it has been so long i am still around Wishing I could get the Heck out of my own head..
Loves and Hugs rhea