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Thursday 05 August 2010

Aug 05, 2010 - 0 comments

Strange dreams last night.  Strange enough to wake me up.  My aunt who passed away in May was at a family gathering at my parent's home.  She appeared to be as she was thirty years ago when I worked in the same part of the hospital.  She wasn't the person I had seen decline to a shell of a person over the past couple years.  She was talkative and outgoing which was not her personality as she aged.  Really a strange dream.  Another thing was that when I did manage to go back to sleep, the dream picked up just where it left off.  Needless to say it was not a night for quality sleep

Wednesday 4 August 2010

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Time is dragging by so slowly it's painful.  There are so many other things I would rather be doing, however, I know that I would not start anything of consequence.  Quite lethargic today.  My concentration is lousy. I keep going back to the same loans over and over again, not making any headway on them. Just adding a little info here and there and not coming any closer to resolution on any of them.

monday 08/02/2010

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Everything I come up with is a rehash of earlier entries.  Same issues, problems, frustrations.  Most of them concern work and money.  A job that I tolerate only because I need the paycheck.  Money that I don't have and people I owe more than I can come up with.  Life at 50 *****.  I see myself in this position without end.  Probably will continue to be required to endure this miserable place forever or if I'm lucky I'll drop dead in the parking lot.  Make this lousy company pay to haul my carcass outta here.

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Monday 26 July, 2010

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Blood Pressure

Started  the blood pressure drugs again yesterday.  I had forgotten how slowed down I become when I take the Clonidine instead of the Catapress patch.  Took the clonidine with the accupril, spironalactone as I was headed out the door this morning. It's now 1:30pm and I'm still in the fog.  Wonder how long it is going to take to get used to this stuff.  The spironolactone dries me out.  Metallic taste that all the water I drink cannot get rid of.  Overdid it this past weekend.  Too hot (105 was the heat index) and Sam and I were out most of the day  running errands.  I don like that I cannot handle the heat like I used to.  Sure, it got uncomfortable but I could tolerate it.  Now I get a immobalizing head ache and all the things that come with it. I can feel and hear my hair grow.  Like a miagrane.  Sure it is becuase of the two bp meds, both of which have warnings about overheating and all that.  Have to face it, I'm not twenty years old anymore. *****.