I've been keeping a steady dose of approx. 8mg per day. Being unemployed, losing my home - living with my Mom, and having lost my Woman and 3 kids, this 8mg steady dose is not doing anything for me other than keeping me from being sick. I'm sick in other ways now. Now I'm sick over the loss of everything valuable in my life. The 1 thing I only care about in my life is my Woman & 3 kids. Even "hope" takes a back seat to them. I want them back, but I'm so poor and sick. I sold my Van to provide a descent Christmas. I'm stuck in my Mom's house for the 1st time in my life and I feel like smashing stuff. This house. I envision driving my Mom's car through the living room. Yess! That would make me feel better! To drive the car 70 mph straight into the living room. I can see myself laughing hysterically at this occurring. Please God, put me on track!
Mike. Find your inner strength. God only helps those who are willing to help themselves. At least that's what they programmed you to believe. Either shake off your entire belief system and move forward or move forward. Either way you'll still wind up at point C.
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