I am feeling down and sad today. I am so tired of hurting so much. It takes everything in me to keep going right now. I do not know how I am going to survive. I was told I have been denied again for SSDI yet I know there is no way I can work with this pain and all the side effects from pain and meds. I wish I could just disappear off the face of the earth. Not feeling suicidal yet but I know I am getting close. Keep praying is all I can think of doing.