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I feel like I;m being tortured from ttc

Aug 18, 2012 - 2 comments

Being a Army Wife and ttc when almost every female on base is pregnant or with newborns and I envy them. It hurts so bad to see all of this day after day constantly reminding me of what i want so bad to share with my husband. Ive prayed ive cried ive tried giving up yet the feeling wont excape. Our insurance dont cover IVF nor do we have the means to afford it out of pocket, so im thinking about possibly doing IUI since its more affordable. Im still praying that something happens soon, its making me miserable!

TTC vent

Apr 15, 2012 - 0 comments

My cycle is sooooo unpredictable that I cant even begin to imagine how many pregnancy test I have taken over the years only to be dissapointed. Its now CD39 and no af, i refuse to take a test because I know it will only result in a BFN. Me and my husband both have had testing done and we are perfectly normal, doc said it was no reason we should not get preg. We are a military family so its hard not to think about a baby when every where you go you see one in the making or newborns. In the past few months 2 of my friends have gotten preg with their 1st child, im happy for them but I find myself a little jealous too. I do have 1 child from a previous relationship but it was not the joyful experience i kno i would feel with my husband,and i want to give him his first biological. Im thinking iui would be our next resort if that doesnt work we will have to be content with what we have!