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Jan 17, 2012 - 9 comments

Aug 14 2011: pregnant
Aug 15 2011: miscarrige
Aug 30 2011: (6 weeks pregnant) your now havving twins, u miscarried one at 4 weeks
Sept 23 2011 : vanishing twin syndrome
Oct 6 2011: 25 birthday, 1 baby happy
Oct 11 2011: almost 13 weeks pregnant. Level 2 ultrasound
Diagnosis: no heartbeat
Oct 13 2011: surgery < dnc
Oct 13 -Dec 2011: depression
2012: hope


Sep 28, 2011 - 11 comments






Here is a video I have made to express my feelings on what im going through....It is a youtube video.

The direct link to the video is:

Or you can visit my channel, and the video will automatically start :

7 weeks pregnant with Twins- HELP!

Sep 05, 2011 - 4 comments

Hi guys...Thank you all so much again for your prayers and support..I sometimes cant respond individually  to everyone due to how im feeling but please, Know that I appreciate all the support and im so greatfull for a community such as this. You guys have been great!

So at 7 weeeks, I am experiencing THEE worst nausea known to am so happy to be in this situation but MY GOD! I am not actually throwing up,...yet..but Im coming very close..its the most disgusting feeling ive ever experienced in my life..It literally sometimes wakes me up during my sleep..geeze..I need some advice guys, I was told to ask for this anti-nausea disolving pill from my Dr. Starts with a Z...I really dont want to be all pill-dependant but I think its totally nessesary at this point.

It is a complete struggle to eat ANYTHING...even my most favorite foods..EVERYTHING aggravates me..smells of certain foods and even pictures of food drive me crazy! I literally had to force myself to eat breakfast this morning..and each bite I fought even harder to keep it down :(...Ive been drinking ginger ale( cafeen free), lemonade, and squeezing lime in my water to remedy the nausea, however it is only temporarily relieved..IF ONE MORE PERSON SUGGESTS SALTINE CRACKERS TO ME IM GOING TO SCRAEM!

I know everyone is trying to help..but i cant eat DRY disgusts me.......and crackers are dry! ...but if YOU guys think it will really help, ill give it a try!

More symptoms..

-Breast Soreness (shooting pains)
-Frequent urination (will this EVER go away?)
-Forgetfullness...spent 1 hour looking for the remote 2 days ago only to find it in the refridgerator..(i had put it there and didnt realize it, smh)
-Weird sensation in my stomach...I guess this is because theres two of them in there?
-Weird dreams that seem completley real. ALL involve the twins..(feeding them, hearing them cry, watching them together)
-Oh and Ive been totally "showing" since 6 weeks..see picture

????????? doctor told me I couldnt have sex until i went one week without bleeding..well ive been monitoring my "spotting" and i noticed it only happens after i walk or stand for long periods of time..this morning i woke up, no spotting, and my hubby wanted to make has been an entire month since we made love and i felt so sorry for him, poor we decided to go ahead, we were very carefull..nothing rough or too deep..checked myself after, still no spotting..Im so happy about that. Do you guys think its safe to have very SAFE gentle sex if i am not spotting ????????????

Details about my twins!

Aug 31, 2011 - 10 comments

At my visit today, the first thing my doctor said was "wow, triplets" .."so we lost one but two are holding on" At this point I asked him again, are you suuureee the CLOMID I took 4-5 months ago had nothing to do with this. He assured me that this was not the effects of drugs, as that drugs had been long gone from my system months ago...I believe him.

He adv that C section was my only options, he would not risk the babies by attempting to deliver vaginally.

Baby A had a heartbeat of 138bpm ..
Baby B had a heartbeat of 94bpm..  (anything over 80 at 6 weeks is normal)
There are two gestational sacs...there is also a possibility they might be identical.

He told me it was not uncommon for one twin to be stronger than the other.
My due date is April 26 2012...
Twin pregnancy is considered full term at 37 weeks, however I may deliver after 34wks.

Today when I went to the doctors they asked me how far along I response was
"I am 6 weeks pregnant with twins"

Thats when it hit me...Im pregnant with TWINS!