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FERTILAID FOR MEN!!

Feb 28, 2013 - 0 comments

Hey ladies I have reading nothing but great things about fertilaid for men. I am thinking about buying it for dh. Our RE appt is not until may but I feel like we can at least try something. I was even thinking about getting one of those at home semen test. Im only hesitant because I dont know what the RE is gonna say and I don't want this fertilaid to interfere or damage anything any more than it already is.

Have any of you ladies tried it or know anyone who tried it?

BABY DREAMS!

Jan 20, 2013 - 0 comments

I HAVE BEEN HAVING A LOT OF BABY DREAM LATELY. THEY ARE ALL SEEM SO REAL AND I CAN REMEMBER EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED. LAST NIGHT I HAD A DREAM THAT ME AND DH WERE IN THE HOSPITAL AND THERE WAS THIS LADY WHO HAD JUST GIVEN BIRTH AND A NURSE HAS ESCORTED HER OUT OF THE ROOM AND ANOTHER NURSE BOUGHT THE BABY TO US! I WAS CRYING SO HARD. THE NURSE HANDED DH HE BABY FIRST AND THEN DH PUT HIM(YES IT WAS A BOY) IN MY ARMS. I REMEMBER JUST SITTING IN THE ROCKING CHAIR JUST STARING AT HIM CRYING. IT FELT SO REAL. WHEN I WOKE UP I WAS LIKE MAN IT WAS ONLY A DREAM LOL. ALL THE DREAMS I HAVE BEEN HAVING HAVE BEEN ABOUT BOYS.

THESE DREAMS HAVE BEEN HAPPENING MORE OFTEN. HOPING THAT SOON THESE DREAMS BECOME A REALITY.



I HAVE CONVINCED DH...

Dec 10, 2012 - 13 comments

I AM VERY DOWN STATE RIGHT NOW. I KEEP SEEING FRIENDS ON FB ANNOUNCE THAT THEY ARE EXPECTING AND IN SUCH CUTE WAYS. IT JUST SO FRUSTRATING BECAUSE THEY DONT EVEN HAVE TO TRY. DH KNOWS WHEN IM DOWN SO TODAY HE ASKED ME WHAT WAS WRONG. I TOLD HIM AND HE SAID IF ITS MEANT TO BE ITS MEANT TO BE. I REALLY DONT LIKE THAT SAYING BECAUSE WHAT IF ITS NOT MEANT TO BE??

IT HURTS SO MUCH OF THE POSSIBILITY THAT I MAY NOT BECOME A MOM. I WANT TO BE ABLE TO EXPERIENCE WHAT OTHER WOMEN EXPERIENCE. I WANT TO KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE TO GO THROUGH LABOR, DEAL WITH THE MORNING SICKNESS, THE WEIGHT GAIN, PAIN, STRETCH MARKS AND EVERYTHING THAT COMES ALONG WITH BEING PREGNANT BECAUSE I KNOW WHEN THAT NINE MONTHS IS UP I WILL BE ABLE TO HOLD MY LITTLE ONE IN MY ARMS.

WE HAVE BEEN TALKING ABOUT ADOPTION AND HE IS WILLING TO DO THAT TOO. I WOULD LOVE THEM AS IF THEY WERE MINE OWN BUT I KNOW IT WILL BE NOTHING LIKE HAVING A BIOLOGICAL CHILD. WE TALKED ABOUT DONOR SPERM BUT I DONT THINK EITHER OF US WOULD BE COMFORTABLE WITH THAT. WE EVEN TALKED ABOUT DONOR EGG AND SPERM BUT I HAVE TO DO SOME MORE RESEARCH TO UNDERSTAND THAT WHOLE PROCESS.

DH HAD A SA DONE A WHILE AGO AND THEY FOUND NO SPERM AT ALL :-( I TOLD HIM ABOUT A SURGERY BUT DH DOESNT WANT ANYMORE BECAUSE HE HAS BEEN THROUGH 13 DUE TO A MOTORCYCLE ACCIDENT. I CONVINCED HIM TO GO SEE A UROLOGIST TO GET SOME FURTHER TESTS DONE. HOPING AND PRAYING FOR THE BEST.

PS-IF ANY OF YOU KNOW ABOUT THE ADOPTION, DONOR EGG/SPERM PLEASE FEEL FREE TO LET ME KNOW. MESSAGE ME OR COMMENT.
                                                                                   -MELANIE