Mar 31, 2016
Nobody does journal entries, but im just doin this when i have time or bored.
April 29, just another usual day off from work for me. These use to b my favorite days, cuz i didnt have to worry about being around alot of ppl at work, but now i find it stressful to do other things now like going to the barbershop, going to a store, mall, and the gym. Life goes on tho, im doin wut i can to be successful while dealing w patm daily. How do u balance out the 2? What a strange health problem to have. I made changes, lost over 30 lbs so far, stopped all drinking, dont smoke, but now it seems like things are getting worse.
Money, i feel, is what's keeping me from getting the treatment i feel will solve this issue. I'm waiting to b approved to work from home, theres always tons of overtime, and im close to ordering my new dj equipment which will bring in even more money than my job. I went to play ball yesterday and sum1 overhead me saying that i dj. So i locked in that deal, a wedding in August. Minimum of 600, but i havn't given the final price yet. Around 20 guys there at the park all asking for when im gonna start making mixtapes also gave me some comfort knowing ill have different avenues of making money. All this gives me hope for being cured 1 day. I miss all the networking i use to do, just look how it paid off yesterday. I could flourish tremendously if i didnt have patm holding me back.
Just some thoughts from today.
I use to turn down weddings and parties all the time in the past, but now its for my health. Not to mention, of i find a way, itll also benefit others w this problem by bringing forth the cause of patm. Ive accepted patm finally, and know i will not b cured if I MYSELF, don't get my *** in gear and make it happen. I gotta do what i have to. If i meet w sum1 and they get a bad vibe from being in my proximity, therefore losing a deal for a party, club or whatever, than so be it. Ill just land other deals to make up for it.