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Very inspired to LIVE LIFE

Jul 02, 2013 - 0 comments

for the last few days despite low energy, I have a burning inside or at least a stead heat ready to boil inside me, one that has urged me to actual live life, enjoy it be happy and being thankful for each new day (I do also thank god for this too)

My mind is clear and I feel that I'm now longer a slave that the pills... They maybe calling me but they have the wrong number because this addict CAN and will KEEP saying NO.

Clean Again

Mar 12, 2013 - 0 comments
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Drug abuse and dependence



I ended up going on an almost 2 week bender but I'm not 3 day clean.

I've been listen to some music and the lyrics of the some Rescue Me from the TV shown Once upon a time really captured how I felt right now, This can't be the end this can't be all life has to offer..


Kerrie Roberts
Rescue me (how the story ends)

This waking nightmare lingers
when will the mirror stop telling lies
I don't know where I've been
or where I'm going
But I can't do it alone
I'm reaching out

Rescue me
Show me who I am
'Cause I can't believe
This is how the story ends

Fight for me
If it's not too late
Help me breathe again
No, this can't be how the story ends

I'm wrapped up and waiting for you
I've lost so much more then I'll ever know
The past, the truth forgotten
find me now
Before I lose it all

I'm crying out

Rescue me
Show me who I am
'Cause I can't believe
This is how the story ends
fight for me
if it's not too late
help me breathe again
no, this can't be how the story ends

Rescue me
Show me who I am
'Cause I can't believe (I can't believe)
This is how the story ends
Fight for me
If it's not too late (not too late)
Help me breathe again
No, this can't be how the story ends


Temptations

Dec 03, 2012 - 0 comments
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Headaches

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I went to a new doctor which didn't know my past with addiction with Codeine, when talking about headaches and migraines, offered and also on my spot was going to write me a prescription for high strength codeine to assist with future migraines issues. It was a split second thought of I guess I could take it and use it as needed, but than common sense kicked in and I happy declined and said I'll be happy using other medications that are non addictive that are on the market.  

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Temptations

Nov 25, 2012 - 0 comments
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addiction recovery tracker

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today

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good



Went out with Friends today, put on a jacket I had not worn a few weeks. IT was a little chilly so I open the pockets to put my hand in for warmth only to find pills... ARRRRH...

I thought I had got rid of all the hidden pills around the house, but when your an addict you need hiddy holes for pills everywhere. But I was strong enough to pick them up and throw them in a bin I past. It felt soo good doing that..

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