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Getting Out of the Shell.

Dec 19, 2011 - 0 comments
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All I said was, nothing. Nothing would change how I feel towards others. Nothing would change how I act towards others either. I wish they would understand that without people to talk to, it's hard to be happy. Hard to be able to believe in the things that you Think would help. Nothing wouldn't help til my step mom confessed.
She confessed that I scare her, that I scare her that I don't talk. I don't like talking to people who yelled at me for doing things in my past that I regret. I hate it. My step mom knew better than to cross my line because if she did, she would get hit. Not the kind of kiddish hit, but the hard on bruise making kind of hit. She crossed the line before and did nothing but cry. I didn't try to. Honest. Try to change me, it might work you wouldn't know it. Well she talked to me about my real mom and how she isn't here that I can't talk to her about certain stuff and all that other divorce stuff. I felt like crying so I kept my head low and focused on the computer looking at nothing, pretending to type something when I wasn't.  Nothing. I mean nothing could change how I feel.

He could have gave up his life..

Dec 11, 2011 - 0 comments
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I won't say who, but he took pills.. He purposely tried to overdose on his friends sleeping pills, and had passed out twice. For three hours he had stomach pains. I didn't know he was doing this since I fell asleep earlier than usual and he texted me saying, "...I took sleepin pills, i dnt knw wht to do no more..I tried overdosin.." He gave me details after this text which was sent at 1:07 a.m. 12-11-11 . The next morning I read the text and I started crying and immediantly called him to make sure he was okay, and he was besides the stomach pains. I told him that everything is going to be okay if he would stay positive and to stay away from things that'll make him more depress or mad. He told me that nothing could help besides you, as in i. I tried helping and I did. What I did was tell him that, "No matter what happens in your life you always got me. No matter what I'll be by your side, it doesn't matter whether I'm mad at you or not. I'll be here. I love you ----- ----- and no body and no single thing in this world will Ever change that. I can't wish on things anymore because all I got to say is, I will, and I will make you get better. Whenever you feel down I'll be here for you to talk, I will Never judge you no matter What you do because I have family that done worse and I still love and treat them the same. I will always be here for you unless I was to die or somehow couldn't contact you. I love you ------ -----. " Later on that day he told me he's trying to stop with drug abuse and going to try to control his anger issues. I told him to head to the hospital still in case anything had gotten ruined by the pills. He denied since he said his family couldn't afford the bill. So I persuaded my dad into paying the bill because he knew ------'s family but wasn't very fond of them. My dad paid and now ------ is approving.