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Jun 19, 2012 - 0 comments

well for the past 2 days i have had servere flask backs , emotions overwelming , loss of control of feelings , of self, bad depression fight or flight  mode ... suciadial thoughts /impulsive  strong / crying alot  ... ju8st want this pain to end .... STOP


May 06, 2012 - 0 comments

well i have had a very hard emotionally weekend !!! i woke up friday morning to being touched  while i was sleeping ... yuck ... why does he have to do that will i ever be respected in this world ?  my body  isnt mine  anymore .... .i hate it  noone listens or understands  my pain !!!!  my childs father got arrested on fri night  i had to go bail him out   178 dollars  gone  .... im not gonna get back ... lovely ... and tommorow is a very bad day  2 years ago i got the **** beat out of me by my x and 3  years ago i got raped on a blind date ... **** may 7trh  ..... yucky ......  i wish i could just die and be reborn into a new soul  with  no hurt ..  lord  just keep giving me strenght  when im weak and my best friend sara and pam and susan  .... please  


May 03, 2012 - 0 comments

went to tapsafternoon class from 12 till 2 15 then went and met pam at options and adv at 3 pm  then went  to  paulas interpersonal  boundries class from 4 till 5 30 , i feel really comfy in that new class its all girls and were all scartistic so it puts me at great ease. then i went to my moms allie had her appt with lee tonight at 4 too , met my mom at her house after group ate dinner visited with her and allie  ashley and my dad  then went to the nami meeting from 7 to 8 30 it was a good meeting ...


Apr 28, 2012 - 0 comments

went and helped susan today at nami ,brought annabell and andrew with me , then  went to my  mom  and dads  the kids got to ride the chopper my dad bought them it was cute  he was showing annabell and andrew how to do the clutch and steer  , then caame home  and had dinner  now gonna go to bed