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Worried...

Feb 26, 2009 - 11 comments

I need to vent to someone about this as I am a nervous wreck. I didn't want to tell Jacqui the other day, but the ultrasound didn't go so well. The baby looks good and everything is ok except for my amniotic fluid. I have too much. The drs said that about 1 out of every 100 girls that comes into her office a week has it. She said that they are going to see me on the 6th to see if it gets better. She said that if it doesn't get better and they have to deliver early, they will. WHich is nuts to me as I am only 21 weeks. I looked it up online, bad idea, and it says defects in the baby could be the cause. I am scared to death and am praying this baby is ok. I don't know what to think. It also says it can cause stillbirth if it gets too bad. They will see if it decreases first, then treat it with meds and if they don't work they will surgically remove some of it. The symptoms in the mother are shortness of breath and also discomfort in the belly, which for the past few weeks I have been complaining of both. I just didn't know what it was from.

Just say a prayer the baby is ok and that it decreases on its own. Thanks so much...

Lisa

First Ultrasound

Nov 20, 2008 - 8 comments

So, I went yesterday and saw my little peanut, and when I say peanut, that is how big he/she really is..lol..I am officially 7 weeks and 5 days as of today..the baby's heartbeat is 150 beats per min. And with all the reading I am doing, that means a girl...I have a girl and really wanted a boy, But as long as he/she is healthy, I don't care what it is....

I couldn't hear the heartbeat as its too faint to hear, but I did see it beating and its so cool...

Hope all are well..

10 Months....

Nov 03, 2008 - 16 comments

The 31st maked my 10 month without Oxycontin. I almost cannot believe where my life is now and i am so happy that I got clean. I am happy and finally free of counting pills, not eating all day to save my $ for pills. Never being able to go anywhere due to no $. Scared of my future and praying that the lord wouldn't take me like he took my husband. I have come a long way and I still cannot believe I did it. I know that everyone says this and thinks this, but if I could do it...seriously...anyone can. I never thought I could. I am proud of ME....

Hope all are well...

xoxoxox, Lisa

9 months today

Oct 01, 2008 - 0 comments
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Today is nine months clean..well technically 8 months clean because I was on Sub for one month. So 8 full months clean as a whistle..taking nothing but the fresh air to get me out of bed. No sub, no Oxy's..I am so happy. well..just an update. Hope all are well. And i hope that everyone finds their way back to a clean and happy life....

Love to all....

Clean at last.........