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My kids are finally off

Jul 20, 2012 - 0 comments
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TIRED

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Kids

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air flight

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Insomnia



Well due to a storm that caused severe flash flooding yesterday, my kids missed their flight. So this morning I had to get them up at 3 am to get ready to go to the airport for a 7 am flight. I tossed and turned all night and didn't fall asleep until about 2 am. My alarm went off at 3 am. But my kids had a safe flight and have landed so now I can rest. I thought once I found out that they had arrived safely that I would just crash, but I didn't. I'm tired but I can't seem to fall asleep. Ugh!

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embarrassing but true

Jul 19, 2012 - 0 comments
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embarrassing

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Itchy

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reaction

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wheat sensitivity



So yesterday, I was feeling so badly that I ate nothing until dinner. I couldn't even drink much water because I was in so much pain. So when dinner came around I decided to just eat...damn the diet just get some nourishment into me. However, I did eat soup...just not soup that was appropriate for my diet. So along with this soup comes some crusty italian bread that I really like. Normally I can resist it, but I don't know if it was because I hadn't eaten all day long or what, but I caved and took a bite. I told myself that I would only take one bite, but after that bite and tasting that they had buttered the bread (they normally leave it dry), I couldn't resist. I ended up eating both slices!

I have a wheat/gluten sensitivity so I had cut all wheat products out of my diet in order to stay well. I discovered that I have more than a GI reaction to eating wheat products; I have a skin reaction too. And it's in a not-so-discreet place. I get the mad genital and butt-crack itchies! UGH! I was up all night with insane itchiness that I hadn't experienced since the last time I had wheat.

Well, that'll teach me! Even if I am sick and starving, if bread is the only thing on the menu...I'll pass!

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saying bye to my kids...temporarily

Jul 19, 2012 - 0 comments
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dealing with anxiety

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kids flying solo

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Divorce

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issues



I am in an unusual funk today. This evening I have to put my kids, aged 14,10 and 9, on a 4 hour flight to see their father in California. I'm about to lose my mind! This will be their first time flying alone. I hate this divorce thing! I never wanted to be divorced because things like this have to happen in order for the kids to be able to have both parents in their lives. I really and truly hate this!!! I don't want to have to get used to this and I don't want my kids on a plane alone until they are adults! I'm really having some emotional issues today. Hopefully, I'll get through it without incident.

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Really?

Jul 17, 2012 - 0 comments

So I got food poisoning yesterday and the pain is still haunting me today. I feel terrible. I grilled and ate a steak that had apparently been in the fridge for too long...and WHAMMO! Food poisoning. Yay me!

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