Today has been a very emotional day. Check out my blog on myspace. It's more up to date...

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SO I HAVE SERIOUSLY SPENT THE PAST 2 WEEK'S WONDERING WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE ?  THING'S ARE NOT SO GOOD WITH MY HUSBAND, AND I AM STARTING TO FIND THAT I'M FALLING FOR AN OLD FLAME OF MINE..... I LOVE MY HUSBAND, BUT NOT THE WAY I SHOULD.... I LOVE HIM BECAUSE HE'S THE FATHER OF MY CHILDREN..... BUT THIS OTHER PERSON... IS SOMEONE THAT I LOVE WITH ALL MY HEART..... I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.....THIS OTHER PERSON, WHEN I WAS WITH HIM... MY HUSBAND AND I WEREN'T MARRIED, AND WE WERE SEPERATED.... I WAS LIVING WITH HIM AND WHEN WE COULD KISS,, OR HE WOULD TOUCH ME... I WOULD FEEL THIS FIREY PASSION DEEP DOWN.... THAT JUST MAKE ME FEEL LIKE I'VE FELT BEFORE...JUST THE PASSION.... I MEAN IT'S EVERYTHING THAT A GIRL DREAM'S OF WHEN SHE'S LITTLE.. I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I AM JUST SO CONFUSED RIGHT NOW.I CAME HOME FROM WORK TODAY AND JUST ABOUT GOT MY HEAD RIPPED OFF, HAD A HUGE FIGHT WITH MY HUSBAND.... I HAVE BEEN CRYING ALL NIGHT AND JUST  CAN'T SEEM TO GET MY HEAD ON STRAIGHT.. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO........ I MEAN, I KNOW THAT IF THINGS END UP GOING CRAPPY WITH MY HUSBAND AND I, THAT FOR REASONS I CAN'T SAY RIGHT NOW HE'LL GET THE KIDS AND I'LL BE WITHOUT THEM... I JUST.......I DON'T KNOW...

Ok, so I hurt my back a few week's ago and now I'm paying for it big time! I have been in bed the past 4 day's and have lost so much sleep....I went for an MRI today and thought I was going to die lying on that table.... It hurt my back so bad.... Everyone at the dr's office is saying I pinched a nerve, but it doesn't feel like it... I have so much pressure in my lower back, and when I move wrong of stand up and my back pops the pressure get's worse.. When I'm laying down, about 5 minutes after I lay down my left leg get's tingly and numb.... But it's only when I lay down..... When I stand up or sit, I'm fine... I just can't stand or sit for too long....... *sighs* I just don't know what to do.. Everytime stuff starts to go right it, something happens to make it all go bad...... I am just so sick of this! *sighs*