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Pain free at last

Mar 12, 2009 - 0 comments

For the first time in two and a half years I have no more pain in my head or eyes. This pain use to be 24hrs a day, I wanted to die to end it.  Six weeks ago I was sent to physio for neck pain. The Therapist asked me if I would like to try acupuncture. I did and after the fourth session the pain in my neck and eys started to subside. After the 5th session the pain went away and never returned. He worked on the vascular area. I was suppose to have Giant Cell and lived on predisone for two and a half years. I always thought it was a vascular problem. Whatever it was it is gone and I thank God. I prayed and cried everyday hoping the pain would end, my prays have been answered.
My message is never give up hope and talk with God even if you do not know him. He will listen.

Afraid

Feb 03, 2009 - 0 comments
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I am having so much pain in my head and eyes that at times I just want to die because I cannot stand the pain. The pain gets worse and worse but all the doctors do is treat the pain and not explore what is causing it. I feel very angry and frustrated. I feel worn out from crying because of the pain in  my head and eyes and afraid because I do not know what is causing it.

A New Year

Jan 01, 2009 - 4 comments

Today is a New Year, what will it hold?  I feel like I am standing in a doorway peaking out and wondering what lays ahaead. 2008 and was a diffucult year. I pray that this one will be less harsh. I have been grieving allot these past few weeks. I can not say that the grief is about any one thing. It is as though I needed to grieve to ge able to move forward. I cannot say that my grief was only about my life. At times I felt over whelmed by the sadness around me and the sorrow I see in other faces.
It is 2009, a new year, a new adventure to begin!!!

Afraid

Sep 22, 2008 - 2 comments
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Each day my head pain gets worse and my eyes are weaker. I take the predisone but it is not working. The doctors seem to have given up on me. They pass the buck. No one seems to want to take responsibility. My family physician cares but he has to wait for the specialists to tell him what to do and they talk in circles. I hate to say this but I'm concerned about losing my vision because no one wants to explore what is causing this pain. The treatments for Giant Cell are not working. I have every reaction to predisone there is, the hump has been forming lately. I feel like andan alien. I look so different. the hump is hurting, its at the base of my neck. Sometimes I wish I was dead so I would not have to sit up in pain, crying because I do not know what to do or how to stop it. I am so afraid of what is happening to me.
Tommorrow is a new day and I always seem to make it through the night to the next but I feel so drained lately.