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Aug 28, 2013 - 0 comments
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No physical withdrawals. Energy is a lot higher, vague feeling of anxiety is up a little and perhaps my patience is a bit shorter than usual, but my actual mood is good and I've been quite productive lately. I'm actually planning to let the citalopram completely clear from my system and then switch to St John's Wort to help the anxiety. Apart from at the time I started citalopram and a relapse that was likely connected to extremely low ferritin levels about 2 years ago, severe depression hasn't been so much the main problem as a vague unfocused panicky anxiety about absolutely nothing that I could pinpoint. I figure I'm older now, and more settled, so I should be able to develop non-med strategies to control it at a manageable level. Better to have some degree of permanent anxiety but actually have enough energy to, you know, live my life.

Been a week. Think I might get away with no withdrawals?

Aug 27, 2013 - 0 comments
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So, it's been a week since I took my final dose of citalopram/celexa. I've had no withdrawals and have actually had a better mood than on the meds, on average. I think this medication kind of 'flatlines' your mood...you don't get the lows, but equally, you don't really feel happy either...actually you don't really feel much of anything, hence 'flatline'. Mostly, you just feel 'okay'. Neither good, neither bad. Just okay, fine. Fine/Okay, by the way, is a wonderful feeling when you've been so unhappy it literally hurts to move, but really, do you want to go though your life feeling 'okay', no matter what? You're in a situation where you should be panicking...instead you feel 'okay'(although this is handy when you need to be the cool head in a crisis). You win 25 million dollars...and you feel 'okay'(to be honest this hasn't actually happened to me, except maybe in a fantasy lol).

Still fine.

Aug 25, 2013 - 0 comments
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Still no withdrawals. Maybe they're just not going to happen? I can hope. I wonder if it's something to do with my current brand being the generic. I think the the previous time I tried to quit I was taking the Arrow brand. We have heavily subsidised healthcare here, and some medications only incur a prescription fee($5 or $6, if I recall), but this depends on what brands the government is currently funding (this changes a lot, from refill to refill).

So far so Good

Aug 24, 2013 - 0 comments
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Still feel fine. No major withdrawal symptoms as yet. Maybe a the odd mild brain zap, but if so, they're so mild that I'm not sure if they're 'real', or if it's just that I'm expecting them to start, if you know what I mean. I have more energy and my mind feels clearer...no more 'brain fog'. Mood-wise, I actually feel more upbeat. I think this might be because the constant exhaustion I have felt for so long is going.

I have been taking Citalopram for my entire adult life. I began taking it just before my 19th birthday, and I will be turning 29 next month. I don't actually know what it is like to live as an adult without medication, but it's not unreasonable to expect to live another 50 years or more, and it can't be good to take anything non-stop for that long.