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Challenging Times

Mar 12, 2009 - 0 comments
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I haven't been on here for some time. I thought it would be great having my parents back. But, it's like I'm the kid again,and because of everything I can't afford to move out.  The stress is making my headaches worse.  I wish I could say I have been trusting the Lord through the situation, but I haven't, causing my stress to go up. To make things worse my uncle lives with us and he can't deal with how loud my parents are. But, until my parents get jobs he needs to stay and pay rent.  
This is a challenging time for all of us I just need to remember that at and trust in God. Showing love in all that I do and say may help.

This Year: What is in store?

Jan 01, 2009 - 0 comments
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Headaches

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new year



I start the new year off not sure what to expect of my health. 2 months ago I was just suffering from headaches I've had most my life, and osteoarthritis in one, oh and a cataract. Now over the 2 month my pain has spread through out my whole body, and I have problems with my breathing.  I have seen doctor after doctor, and they have all taken tests saying nothing.  I finally got in to see my GP not a specialist or ER Dr. and he took tests that show I could have a blood clot.  The ultrasound on my legs are normal. So the next test is to check out my heart and see how its pumping.  I go in for 4 tests next week.
Reading what I wrote I can't believe how at peace I am. I was actually hooked up to machines thinking, "Gosh this Dr.s cute.", twice last month.  I know a lot of people are concerned about me, and I thank everyone for their prayers and love. I wish I could give them some peace.  
The Lord knows what He has in store for all of us, He knows what He is doing. God is the master healer.  I trust the Lord with my life what ever that mean for me in the future. I pray my family could see my faith in the Lord, and grow in their own faith.
I do not know what this year has in store, but I do know if God is close by my side it can only be good things.

No Words Needed

Nov 30, 2008 - 0 comments
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MRI

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Headaches

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shunt

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help

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prayer warrior



I get my MRI tomorrow I just pray something shows up. I asked so many people to pray. But, Lord I know things will go as you want them to go. Give me peace to be able to lay there for 45 min. You know I have trouble on my back and then when I am on my back that long my hip starts hurting. I ask for your help getting through. Then I have to wait about an hour to get my shunt readjusted. I know you'll work it all out, I also know what an off set to the shunt can do for my headaches.

Forgive me for my unsettled heart. At the same time I have a sence of peace knowing I can come to you and tell you exactly how I'm feeling and you will not scold, tell not feel that way, you open your arms to me like a child who needs her daddy. no words needed.
Shelly

Learning how to deal

Nov 24, 2008 - 2 comments
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learning

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unexpected pain

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OUR LORD



Lord so many people look at me as a piller of strength. Right now I wish I could be that piller. Going from a person that ran around with kids daily to someone who has to use a walker to go to church, is very humbling.  You see me when I stand at the entrance of Kaiser wiping my tears, so I can go in with a smile. Forgive me right now I'm 2 two different people. You would think after years of dealing with headaches I would be ready for this but I guess I wasn't. Thank goodness you are there to pick me up.  Thank you for letting me cry, when my family didn't want me to. Thank you for always being here for me. Lord you are a blessing in my life and I could not go through all this with out you.