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Nov 06, 2008 - 0 comments



Medical conditions



my body looks like freddy kruger visited me, my medical conditions are getting me down, how do i hide from family friends and my partner that nothing is wrong ohter than night terrors??

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Blah again

Oct 13, 2008 - 0 comments

Just like evry day blah-all days seem to coincide morphing into one long saga og nothingness(if that can make any sense at all?)

Everything, even the tiniest of to do's is thrown in the hard basket.  Havent showered since this time last week, this is when i know things are on their way to worse...2hours sleep lastnight, nothign plays on my mind, but everything does during the day, night brings me sleeplessness.  

leaving my idle hands to adventure into the devils playground

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Oct 13, 2008 - 0 comments

Another night where i have taken meds(that i recently begged the doctor for) as xanax isnt working, turns out neither do the sleepers!??

as per usual awake, but not alert, my brain feels heavy, as though it is sinking opast my eyes(yawn)

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Blah Again

Oct 06, 2008 - 0 comments

awake but not, as per usual.  sleep illudes me, if i can manage any its broken, which id rather no sleep at all.  Had avoided my best freind of 14 years for 11 months, then the razor cuts in and you forget. this was last week, and the urges are all i can hear on repeat in my inner monologue.  Cant talk to anyone round me, cnt hurt them more than i already have so the mask of being alright and even happy i place upone my face time and time again

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