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Jan 18, 2009 - 1 comments



Cold Sores

well my viral load went from 3 million to 31, which is great and gives me the strength to get by these wild side effects.  I have been on treatment for 2 1/2 months, and my hemoglobin has dropped to under 9 (which means I have to start the bone marrow injections asap).  Im so happy about the viral load drop it makes all the horriflying side effects worth it.  I just can't believe its working.  No more 80 ounces of water for me, they dropped it to 3 quarats and I guess it washed out everything including sodium, they said it was a miracle i had not gone into seizure.  Anyway, at least my mood has improved, I have had such fatique since I started, its amazing.  I was an trainer so this is the worst symtom to me.

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Jan 18, 2009 - 0 comments


my effexor seems to kicking in and the doc doubled it.  So I am feeling way less suicidal and more positive about the good things in life and there are chemo is getting more tolarable, and we are seeing improvements in my viral load so that helps as the side effects which are really bad much worse than I could have imagined. I must get my gratitude back.....

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hanging in

Jan 18, 2009 - 0 comments

less cravings

Yeah, my roomate has decided she has a problem so she is also not drinking in the house which is a big help to me.  My fear is she is doing the dry drunk think...No meetings, no reading the big book.  She is in that place where she is just gonna drink once in a while...Well, I know ive been in that same space and countless times it didn't work.  However at 50 I have learned to shut my mouth and worry about my own sobriety...

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Jan 13, 2009 - 0 comments

Im finally starting to work out again.  The weight loss I don't think I should take credit for, because chemo is a definate appetitie supresant. The medicine make me weak.  I have worked out all my life include dancing (ballet,jazz, country/western).  I hope they will release me to go back to riding again soon.  You really use several muscles that rarely get used...Its fun really

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